.the sweetest love of all.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010 5:47 AM

all the changes i have from 2007 until now.
actually i think i till look the same.hahas
only with more pimples and darker eyebag(:

year2007

year 2008

year 2008

year 2008

year 2009

year 2009

mar2010

and the most recent photo i took few days back.

june2010
i was just chatting with many people about time passing really fast.
i read back on alot of past love notes and all,
most of the time even trying to figure who wrote it to me and who i wrote to.lols.
my birthday is approaching in 13days time.
i mean it has been realli fast.
when i started counting down,
back than it was like 2mths plus ago.
and now it less than two weeks.
what will i have for this year?
maybe the more i grow up,
i start to stop all my wiseful thinking.
i start to stop my fairytale dreams and all.
i mean i began to realise many things i have not realised in the past.

my birthday is reali approaching,
but i know very well the people who wished me last yr,
will nvr wished me now.
the people who i spent my birthday with,
will never spend with me anymore.
many things have realli changed.
because a yr has past,
people might eventually forget how close they used to be with u etc..

these few years alot ppl step in and out of my life.
let me think back...
there are two person tt step into my life when i worked in jackplace,
and eventually left footprints in me.
i still rmb last year during my birthdae,
i had a fought with janelle after stjames..
but on my bdae she rushed down to celebrate with me.
i was hoping athari would have surprised me,
but he didnt.
and end up i fought with yinjie..

this year,
renee suddenly ended the friendship with me.
and zhihao and i got back in contact again.
maybe all these were fate?
people who were meant to stay should have stayed,
people who were meant to go will eventually leave.
i guess when i come to think back,
i still feel alittle upset.
coming to think of drifting with ppl whom are close to me once,
coming to think of sister i used to have.
coming to think of someone who would rush down whenever im in trouble.
but now i am already 19yrs old,
im no longer the 14yrs old girl u once noe.
no longer the 16 yrs old girl u once worry for.
no longer the 18 yrs old girl u always got angry with.
even if now i wan to make u angry,
even if i wanna make u care for me,
even if i wan you to notice me for the last time,
it all too late.
because u are gone.

suddenly funny thoughts have been rummagin thru my mind.
i mean i cant predict the future.
but who knows wad will happen in the end?
maybe e past had left you crying bitterly,
trying to struggle thru the pain.
but end up down in 5 or 10 years time,
the same thing will happen between u and the person,
but this time with a different ending?
i dunno..
im still hoping,
and i realli did hope.(:

i told YOU everyone has a past,
but not everyone dwell back.
they just did some looking back.
looking back at how foolish they were,
looking back at how stupid they have been.
looking back at how they tried to stand up from where they fall.
but they do not stay there and hold onto the pain.
instead,
they cry,
they feel the pain
and yet they still move on.
you said i have not grown up,
but u are wrong,
because days without u i have been trying to stand strong.
and now i am proud because ive made it.(:

i told myself joanna yong,
you just try..
try and never lose hope.
but the more i tried,
the more i realise u are realli gone.
so im giving up hope.
anywae,
i guess alot of my frens will tink im heartless.
im sorry to janelle and chris.
it has been so long since i contacted u guys or even mit up...

i told germ and zhihao,
many things have reali changed.
and coming to think of the past,
CHEE ZHIHAO U STIL OWE ME SUSHI UH.=)
germaine said it was fun.
i guess it reali was?
but out of all fun i had,
ive hurt many people intentionally & unintentionally.
just because i was still very immature and childish back than.
well anywae its the past(:.

so once again,
people who read my blog will be wondering..
'what the hell is this girl toking abt?'
but i like to sound as though im writing in mystery.
and if u noe it's u,
im sure u CAN feel it.
but i doubt u ever read my blog anymore(: .