Saturday, March 22, 2008 9:57 AM
lately,
ive been real busy working and meeting my boyfriend.
alright.
now first thin on my mind,
i miss my boyfriend.
hes away in malaysia now.
and back tml.
i want my cigarette n bubblegum=].
i miss jeffrey.
i miss derek.
i miss sky.
i miss ah yi.
i miss ah ting.
i miss siao eh.
i miss entertainer.
i miss alot of ppl.
everyone holds a story book in my life.
and everyone just mean so much.
speechless.
hectic.
miserable.
bored.
crazy.
tts how i shld describe myself.
and im crazy in love=]
PS:daddy,im keeping the lollipop still.
Thursday, March 13, 2008 1:05 AM
life has been rather boring for me.
but still,i have to pull thru it.
well i get myself a job.
n mostly i'll be able to take up the course i want=].
im slowly..
as in reali slowly forgetting sky.
if this is the only wae for me.
well,
im afraid.
im scare.
terrified.
afraid tt someone might wan to brk me n siang up.
afraid tt he'll leave me for the sake of someone else.
sigh,but still,
my love for *you is irreplaceable.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008 1:59 PM
its a misundestanding which leads to a break up for us.
and i know u sae to wait,
but knowing that i have stead,
u are just bluffing me.
sky,if u ever were to really wait for my return,
i would go back to u.
but it depends if u are realli willing to.
i miss u,
yes i do.
but im attached to ah siang.
i know ur sad.
u're unhappy.
hurt.
but im sorry for hurting u so bad.
right now,
i know kat wants to win siang back.
n u wan to win me back.
but i know no matter wad,
u wont changed for me.
i still have feelings for u.
but ah siang promise me to help me forget u.
ah siang is the one to love me,
not to hurt me,
not to disappoint me.
he is the one there to protect me.
but u're not.
i may love u deeply,
but we are just not meant to be.
i noe tt we are happy before.
but everythin is just too late.
we're nv meant to be together.
i know wad i wan.
i do have abit feeling for ah siang.
but on another part,
i have to let u go.
but if u realli were to wait on,
i promise i will return back.
i jus want to be happy with ah siang now.
i can only mention thanks to u.
thanks but goodbye.
a single tear will not be shed for u.
if we are meant to be,
no matter wad,
we will stil be together one dae.
weeks,months or even years later.
if ure gonna wait ,
i'll return.
i swear.
Saturday, March 8, 2008 9:10 AM
i dunno what the future holds for me.
i feel pain.
i feel hurt.
i need a break.
i want to cry.
i want to cry so badly.
i dunno wad happen to me.
help me.
i feel pain.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008 9:30 AM
went out with germ to chinatown and decided to take up the melior business school course.
well,im gonna work n mug all the way=]
pay for phone bill followed by zhihao den my school fees.
9000dollars not gonna be easy to earn.
alright.
intended to study in there for 15months,
after tt i will fly~ to melbourne and study the university there.
to get a bachelor deree cert=].
at least my advanced diploma cert can be covered and maybe by the time ir comes out.
so goodbye to singapore in two years time=]
den meet up with sky n gwen after tt,
one is my boyfriend,
another is my 'one night stand'.
haas..my one night stand super funny lei~
than i meet up with my daddy and he allow me to take up the sch=].
after that me and boyfriend go vivo city..
i saw qi yu wu n ekin cheng n fiona xie..
and alot of actress n actor=].
nick shen super handsome eh.my gosh.
ate ben's n jerry icecream.haas..
i chatted with renee on msn,
than followed by the phone.
estimated ar around two hours..
she jus keep on 'shooting ' me all the way.
but its okay la.once in a while tok to her,
let her happy oso good mah=].
had a great time chatting..
shall not sae much..
cause i noe my blog is not PRIVATE!
later got spy..
going to shop for my cousin's wedding clothes tml morning,
than i go meet my boyfriend n didi=].
i wanna watch sky of love n e two faces girlfren tt show=].
after tt im going to church for the wedding rehearsal.
haahs i'll be so busy over the week end=]..
things tt are in the past,
are only meant to be memories.
memories tt are meant to be kept,
deep in my heart.
goodbye,my love.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008 8:25 AM
i miss daddy~
i miss jeff korkor~
i miss people~
i miss everyone~
i have so many things to say.
but i think im speechless.
Monday, March 3, 2008 12:57 PM
as tears flows down my crimson cheek,
i asked and wonder why.
flashback in my head.
sometimes i walk alone the empty street.
i feel lonely.
i fear.
i just wished i was never brought into this world.
i noe i will never be forgiven.
time and time,
the flashback come.
and it breaks my heart.
i feel as though im a failure.
i just wish to be a hppy kid,
like every other children.
i just want to be happy.
12:39 PM
GOD,
just a little time for me.
to spend with my daddy.
to let me be happy.
to give me wadever i want in my life.
i feel down.
i feel hurt.
i feel depressed.
i feel sadness filling up my heart.
this isnt wad i want.
perhaps all this are just dreams that arenever meant to happen in reality.
evern if it is,
im contented.
contented enough tt i once have you.
alright im feeling really sad.
maybe i am just running away from reality.
nobody know how i truely feel.
nobody know wad im thinking.
life could be tiring at times.
life is realli miserable.
DEREK FOO LI JIE;
ure like my real daddy.
although we are same age.
but to me,
you're someone who is owax there for me.
even though when im sad but u dunno,
u still did cheer me up.
u once said,
i dun have a real daddy,
u'll be my daddy.
u'll give me family love.
i thank you for all that u've done for me.
i noe if u want to go,
i cant make you stay.
cause i noe u have to go.
cuz i understand tt ure upset n hurt.
i'll miss you really much when u're gone.
Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you
by your side,
And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.
All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on
Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on
Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there.
goodbye daddy.
till we meet again.
11:56 AM
im going to study.
study in a private school if i supposed.
oh well.
im like...emo-ing.
cause of a stupid song.
sigh.
well.
i think i miss my aunty
i miss my daddy..
i dunno
dunno wad im thinking.
dunno wad im talking.
im just feeling utterly upset.
maybe its just passing clouds in my life?
sigh,
wad is it tt imsupposed to do?
sometime i reali feel as though life is realli tiring..
but i noe i still on..
happily i hope.
