happy birthday to you:)))
goodbye,i am tired.

不要再责怪
为什么从前不坦白
让你身边爱你的人受伤害
你是我一生的最坏
也是我一生的最爱
不能再照顾你的未来
我也要错个明明白白.


心痛.
真的真的好痛.

i not only hurt one,
but both.
im sorry ;
please let me go.

look back on those pictures,
many people walk in and out.
many people have changed.
we have all grown up,
to be more mature in thinking,
and more prettier:)
*mummy's two daughter has finally grown up,
and became fine,beautiful ladys.laughs.
mummy said that her both daughter always come home with bouquet of flowers,
in her old times, she didnt even have any.haas.*
seeing janelle and germaine growing up too,
im happy and glad for them.
but,we are so close still.:)


bought breakfast for sotong & brother.
took bus back home to sleep:)
and woke up at 7pm to watch show.
i'll be out later:)
gonna ton outttt.WHEES~.
still thinking of where to go.haas.
tml im out to wildwildwet,most probably:)
than followed by airport liaos.
sian diao-.-


imu,imu.
miss u right by my side,
miss u talking to me.
miss u playing with me.
uhoh,
have i fallen in love with u?=x.
想你有时会缺氧

thanks to haryo for coming to find me tt night,
and spendin the night with me at east coast park:)


out wih xiangxiang todae to liang court,
followed by orchard.
i didnt noe girls can actually chat non-stop for 5hours=x.
talking to her make me come to my senses,
and yes,ive decided wad i shld do :)


home and received a call from ah siang.
asked me to go down yishun to find him,
than i was thinkin n thinkin n thinkin..
finally said yes,
because he CLAIMS tt he's sad over his wife.
met brother at eunos mrt bus-stop,
he kept on beggin me nt to go,
pull my hand so pain seh.
saw sir louie,
and i heard tt he's off to stayin at brother's hostel,
cuz louie's boyfriend leavin singapore tml le=x.
end up,
needa catch last bus to yishun,
so said goodbye to brother
he somehow have tears in his eyes eh=x
i noe he's worried for me,
but,sigh..walkin away from him is painful somehow=x.


on the bus,
siang called me and asked me where am i etc..
end up i realised he bluff me sth,
so i was so angry i get down the bus,
and end up at e last stop of hougang=x.
replied mingyi's earlier text,
and told him tt im lost at hougang,
so he kept on asking me to stay where i am...
than i insisted on walking,
he called n text me,didnt replied=x.
dunno why,somehow he managed to find me..
and he insisted on sendin me home by bicycle.
HE IS SO SWEET N NICE PLEASE.
on the way back,
chatted alot alot alot..
and i get down at kim chuan road,
i didnt want to go home,
and i chased him home in the end.*laughs.
(mingyi,thanks for the sentence u said to me,
-'when u are extremely upset,i would be there for u.'
and for sending me home despite having to wake up tml morning:) )


took an hour plus to walk to eunos mrt,
met brother again.
and yes,
he never failed to be the one standing by me.
he was soooo tired,
i could see from his expression .
but he still wan to send me home,
end up..i asked him to go home,
but he didnt want to.
he piggyback me for 20metres..
hahas than i decided to get down:)


chatted at busstop,
and yupp...
walk home alone after tt.
total walked for 4hours 20mins todae:)
from 12mn all the way to 420am:)
and im home.
(includin sitting on the bike for 10min)



i know it hurts for u to see me turn and walk away,
but in one month time,
it'll be me who will be seein ur backview instead.
just as u turn and walked into the hall,
it'll be the last time i'll ever see u again:(
and walkin back to the bus stop just now,
realisin u're not there for me,
its just like walkin back into my old life without u.
one month later,
when i turn back and look for u,
i'll slowly realised tt u're no longer behind me,
and i have to pick myself up ,
to go back to my old life,without you.
yes,u'll be sad.
im sorry to make u cry.
but, i'll be even sadder.
because,u doesnt belong to here,
u still have to go back to ur ur world.
im jus ur memories in singapore,
i'll be the one leaving behind here,
with all the memories,
and places where we've been to before.
one dae,
u might forget how i look like,
forget eunos,
forget the route to my hse,
and,u might even forget me.
time's passin by so fast.
u'll only be left with a month,
and we've been really close with each other:)
i'll miss u,
definitely,i will.


YOU,
if readin my blog makes u inferior,
than,dun read on.
don't use all ur words to spike me.
i dun even need ur care and concern.
and pleae,
get out of this.
dun say tt i've changed,
when truth is,
i just STOP living life,the way u want me to.
ive grown up,
dun treat as a little kid anymore.
BYEBYE!

i just dont likeHIM anymore.

off to sch soon later,
wed going buy sweetheart's present with brother:)
thurs im out with s.ching n xiangxiang before work!!:)twist.
thurs gonna SABO thomas ar i tell u,haas!
cuz his bdae fall on fri:)
sun will be sabo-in s.ching,
as her bdae falls on mon:)
than off to pub with her,
and might be gg malaysia on mon to celebrate:)
tweets life XD

the sky tells me that im in love:)
when i hug you tight,
there's nothing that i should fear of the night:)

and even though we are not together,
even though its wrong of us to be,
but,
istillloveyou:)

nowadays my mind had two person in my mind,
but well,
thomas,
u still mean alot to me lahs XD

the important people in my life,
thanks for makin life so worthwhile:)
and yes,
im just soooo touched that mr juraimi text me ytd lahs:)
and he still trust n have so much confident in me:)
attention ppl!!!
HEARTBEAT'S HAVING PERFORMANCE ON 12DEC,
AT NTUC AUDITORIUM,NTUC CENTRE.
COST OF TICKET WOULD BE 15DOLLARS:)
anybody wanna go?if yes,do let me know:)
congrats to my dearest brother,ERNEST,
for achieving a good results:)
and scoring the highest in class,
he managed to go express stream:)


if you think that i hurt you with all my words,

how about thinking of those thoughts u had about me?

how about u saying me behind my back,

how would u feel if u were me?

please,

you hurt me even more by knowing me for so long,

yet never trusted me nor understand me.

i used to think that u're the one who understand me the most,

but all ur fixed mindset of me are just rubbish.

u never truely understand me,

and u just say all the rubbish.

WTF WTF WTF.

say you dote on me,

say u care for me dun wan me to become bad,

all this are just bullshit.

end of the day,

all u know is sae me.
let me tell you,
if u think im not affected by this,
than u're wrong.
because,
im more affected than u,
im sure of that.

ps:girl,dont sad okie?be strong:) miss ya lots.