.the sweetest love of all.

the wae you ended it.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007 11:45 PM

im sorri for hurtin so many people in the first place.

i know tt i would be played by you,

cause u dun even have feelings for me.

i guess u're just playin with me.

should we just let the game play on?

i noe tt im foolish,but u said to leave my life,

leave n let me get done with it.

because of u,

ive hurt many around me

n makin dem feel worried for me.

i dun wan to like u.

i dun wan to even think of u.

maybe wadever everyone sae is true.

but sorri,blame it on me for being naive.

seriously i myself am lost too.

not knowing wad can i do.

not knowing wads there left for me to do...

i wanna forget him.

but every single words fren sae to me,

just hurt me so much.

tell me which wae to head in this life.

this is not the way i want it to be.

Saturday, November 24, 2007 6:18 AM

its been a long time since ive blog again.

and many things has been happening.

i shall not say it anymore.

goodbye,so be it.

let the drama play.

Saturday, November 17, 2007 12:32 AM

hurt;the word to describe.
the word i use on myself.
the pain in me,
the memories.

Monday, November 12, 2007 4:50 AM

i put a new tatoo on my hand=]but it was scratched by janelle.=x

yesterdae went out with yj,germ,kel,rena n yuting=]].went ktv.to celebrate kel's 16 birthdae=].

germ bought me lumpy=],but currently photos unable to be upload on my blog=x.

my life's torn.

Friday, November 9, 2007 6:27 AM

im feeling the pain in me.
who knows?
you have cause pain in me.
i dun wan my bro to be like this.
i failed as his sister.
every single time he goes mad,
my heart just break.
ah ma,why wouldnt u guide me in heaven?
i told u i need u to watch over me.
ah ma,where are you?
i felt like crying.
i felt like endin it.
i failed.
im nt a good sister,neither am i a gd fren.
sumone has left me.
i feel so lost.
sumhow i hope she'll still care.
but i guess she's gone now.
hope she'll be gone for good.
anyone out there,
will u just heal my pain?
i tried acting as though im alright
but sumthing's killing me!!!!!!!

im learning to love my family.

im learnin to stand up on my own,

to depend on myself.

ive learnt to be more matured.

but as this time when im going up,

*_ _ _ left me.

perhaps she cant accept the changes in me

keep me away from pain n hurts.

protect me,will anyone?

love's ain't good.

i guess,

love may hurts.

but losing a fren hurts even more.

nowadays,ive been reali afraid.

ever since my granny pass away,

i fear.

feared tt people close to me,

people who i love,

will leave.

leave me alone in this world.

to endure this.

i cry till my eyes hurts.

but i just kept on sheddin tears.

what happen to me?

below are some photos ive taken when i went for my cousin's wedding=]

my sis n i=]

pathetic.

mummy n me=]]

self obsession.hahas

bro,me n my sis=]

i love my mama!

bro n sis.

tell me wad to do.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007 7:48 AM

tell me wad u wan me to do,
so u can stop sayin tt u want to leave.
to make me stop contact with all my friends?
to have me by ur side every 24hours?
i reali dunno wad u want.
everytime u sae all this,
u make me feel so sad.
u keep on saying tt sumone has replaced u,
WTF!
u want me to lost contact with tt person than u happi isit?!?!?!
u keep on sayin we are like strangers,
wad u reali expect from me?
i guess u are thinking too much.
please,dun be so sensitive.
but if u reali wanna leave now,
den go ahead.
leave me.
i wont ask u to stay.
u keep sayin u wanna leave,
wadeva goodbye nonsense.
i had it all enough.
this is reali irritating.
wad u wan from me?!?!?!
tel me please,
wad u reali wan?='[
zui shou xi de mo sheng ren,
its u n me.
both of us,
u sae tt we drift.
i noe it.
but do u noe how sad will i be everytime u sae all this?
haiiss,wadever u wan do,i dun care.
i hack it,
goodbye than goodbye!

the hidden truth.

7:05 AM

if u happen to see me,
i wish infront of u,
all i can do is to put on a fake smile.
who will be here to comfort me?
im not self pityin,
neither am i askin for sympathy.
the world's reali meaningless.

dear god,
heal my pain-NOW =x

cherish.

6:48 AM

firstly,i want to sae..
KATHERINE;i didnt throw my temper at u.i nv at all.its just tt i dun wanna get disappointed.i have nth to sae.
im workin real hard nowadays.but whenever im alone,i'll think alot.about the past with alot of people.
actually i feel rather sad but i guess nobody know why.people out there,please stop talkin about me cause i dun wanna noe a thin.i dun wanna be mention by others.sigh..help me!actualli i have so much to sae but i guess things will jus turn out so wrongly.everythin will stil be the same.so how am i gonna speak out?!?!=x.

kelly moh!where are u?!?!got germaine tan u forget about me le!haiss.
maybe the one i reali miss most in my life now is kat,gm,yj n kel bahhs...i cant think of anymore le.sigh..
i also dunn wanna sae.i also dunno why.i need to get the disturbance out of me.

i guess this pain reali hurts alot.