.the sweetest love of all.

goodbye(:

Tuesday, March 31, 2009 8:45 AM

i understand that i sounded harsh in the previous post.

but you know what girl?

i do miss you alot.

and we have really drifted ever since last year.

in primary school,

we would always go choir together and go bedok inter together.

cynthia and i will play hide n seek in library with you,

and end up you will always be crying.

when we go for choir syf and you will share sandwich with me.

when u used to treat me drink milo and also eat fishball,

when u will always bring badminton racket n play together.

your dad always send me home and also send me to temple,

we will always pray and see the fortune thing.

everytime when we quarrel,

you always complaint to your mother than she will cal me.

we share lots of nicknames together like callin u 'SI-MEI',

buying bubble tea together.

and dressin up really nerd with polo tee and ur op pants.

ALSO to get caught n lock up in tanglin HQ together before.

12years of friendship,

we have only been in the same class for 4years.

our 8years of strong friendship together,

we see each other grow.

changin boyfriend and fallin in love together(:.

having sleepover n playin pillow fights together.

quarrelin over guys and friends.

going each other house to bai nian,

trying on clothes together,

putting on make up for each other,

going malaysia together and play.

had so much fun when we reali sit down,talk and drink.

comfort each other with long messages and letters.

never failing to spend each other bdae together.

singing song and emo together,

gossiping about other ppl we dun like.

taking neoprints together.

secondary school both u and i are in e different classes,

both of us are in different cca.

but still,our friendship was so strong.

so strong that we still go out almost everydae together,

you waited for me to end cca and i waited for urs to end.

we go 85 market to eat together.

and even pon-in school together,

quitting school at the same time.

joined the same private sch n same course.

and slowly things have drifted apart as we grow older.

slowly we both have our own circles of friends,

we quarreled almost everydae.

thank you for endurin my temper and nonsense.

thank you for never givin up this friendship.

but perhaps its because you didnt realli talk out wad u feel and all?

perhaps its because you always dun care about what happen to me,or us.

that is why i would always think of u this wae n got angry.

both you and i have changed alot.

with our appearance,attitude n even goals in life,

both of us have realli changed.

sometimes i wish we would never grow up.

so we are able to enjoy those young lifes we have again.

when we will always run up n down library,

eating sumo house or watchin movie.

bullyin u when are are reali young.

and having movie marathon together.

going down ur house late in the middle of the night,

just to specially help you choose clothes to wear.

we used to be realli stubborn with doing things our way.

always wanting to have lots of friends,

and turnin realli rebellious.

but time past and things change.

now we have grown up,

and we both have been realli busy with doin our own things already.

from 7years old till 18years old,

counting to a dozen years.

really long,

come to think of everything that we've been thru,

im realli getting emotional because its just so much.

i dunno how long this friendhip will keep going,

but thank you so much.

thanks for everything that you have done to me in my life.

though you are not the closest friend to me,

but you are the dearest one to me(:.

and in my heart you always have a place.

iloveyousomuch.aunty.

goodbye to your japan trip:).

i may not be there to send you off,

bu i hope u wll call me up okie?

and chat to use finish my free international bal:).

remember to buy me back as many things as u can carry k.

and also ,

i hope we will get better when you're back:)

i dunno how am i going to open my mouth and talk to you,

that's why i choose to write it here.

our friendship realli mean alot to me.

everytime i had always wanted to tell u how much i cherish u,

but i dun have the chance to at all.

its kinda sad,

that our friendship would actually end up like this now.
but than,

you are my best friend.

from primary 1 until now,

u will always be.

and our plans of stayin together at the age of 21,

with many many promises we used to say.

bon vongage my dearest :).

i wish i could turn back time to wen im really young,

without worries or also sadness.

i hope i can be a kids once again,

to be showered with love by every single one.

but as we grow older,

people around us slowly leave one by one and also drifted.

i miss those childhoow moments i have.

although it wasnt realli great,

but at least i am really happier too.

and also,

~~imissyoualot.~~

all these,?

Monday, March 30, 2009 4:43 AM

its just two weeks of happiness,

but we have already enjoyed ourselves so much.

among you three,

germaine;u are the one who dun care the most.

and even though i have always been sayin you,

but i cherish this friendship between us more than u cherish it.

between u three,

i know i hurt didi and kat the most.

because u dun even give a damn to what is happening.

u know that i teng didi alot,

and i expected all of us to be there for her.

but still,

i guess we are nothing more than ur other friends.

you only know how to talk back about people,

but have u ever go and understand how people actually feels?

the more i say the more unhappy you will be.

and katherine only hear from ur side bt never hear from mine.

baby,i know u heard from germaine and u did see it yourself,

but i hope u do try to see from my point also,

how i feel and everything.

besides all those attitudes,

haven i tried to be a good friend?

haven i owax been the one doin so much efforts to pull our frenship nearer?

i dunno what is going on right now.

and it seems that there is no ending to it,

because even if we are willing to put in efforts for this friendship,

SOMEONE might not even be bothered about it.

and also.

it seems like different clique is drifting away now.

i dunno lahs,

i am vexed but trying not to.

and also,

TO YOU...

i am HAPPIER now without al ur fucking nonsense and accused.

without you reali irritating and controllin me.

even my sisters and friends are pissed with you,

because you are NOT even my girlfriend or anything.

just by not replyin,

you say that i am actually lying to u.

going out with other guys and flirtin or so?

why our friendship will come to an end?

because of ur lackin trust,ur nonsense and oversensitiveness.

ah bee,i do miss you.

tiantian,i miss you too(:.

sorry to the both of you.

sorted out my thoughts.

Sunday, March 29, 2009 11:47 AM

as usual,
my post gotta be started off with my face luhs(:.
pass few days,
alot of things has been happening.
and i didnt stay home for 5days?yeap.:)
but right now im home and hopefully everythin would be solved.
home is still the best place i wanna be at.(:.

so we stayed over at janelle's house for the past few days.

i simply love it(:.esp the last night together with janelle and zac.
i shall just combine all the photos into one pge,

otherwise my blog would be spam with pictures again.=x
so peeps,if u wanna have the photos,

let me know and i will send it to you ya?(:

and wednesday night we went arena together,

i got banned from arena !=x.long stories lahs.

but pass few days were realli fun,

and lots of shocking things happen too.

but still,

i wished every dae would be like this.:)

to katherine&germaine&xiuting:

sisters,im sorry for those harshful words i have said.im sorry for saying that you guys were actually replacement of janelle's clique.i have never feeled this way before,but its because i was blaming myself for what i have done towards you guys thats why this thought would actually pop up in my mind.you guys know what?you have always been a blessing that God has given me,because you guys are always there for me when i needed someone.always there to endure my nonsense,to hear me out and nobody else in the world would actually stand my fuck up attitude.yes indeed, 12years of friendship wih germaine,she must have been hurt umpteen times by me,must have been realli enduring me for long.we have realli gone thru a long road together before.and as for katherine and me,baby you're the one that really know me inside out.how i have treated you in the past,how much i hurt you,make u worry for me,all this i know .i really hated myself for not being able to balance my friends,not being able to treat them equally.baby,ur msg that day make me cried,because even after hurting u so badly,u still sae tt if anyone ever mistreat me,u always welcome me back.know why i want to leave this clique of ours?its because i hurt u guys too much,nothing can actually help to take that scar away.i feeled belonged in this group of ours,i feel loved.i know who is actually my true friends.but,why cant i just make my mind up?i missed all of us.maybe i have been expecting too much from you guys,and causing all of u to be really stressed up because of me.we have our own circles of friends too.you hae ur boyfriend & frens,germaine has her own guitar and cosplay friends.didi has her own yishun cliques too.i feel extremely bad because you fought with xiuting because of me.i feel bad because didi ended up sniffing glue again. i know the two of u dote on me the most,and had always wanted to protect me. i am sorry if didi scolded you &germaine because of me. sorry that didi was spoiled by me because whenever she attitude,i scolded u two instead of her.no matter how bad she treat u guys,how she push ur limit,i still ask u two to give in. there is so much going on between us right now. and i am the main cause of it. i know the three of u would be able to slowly put it behind and be close again,but im afraid i cant.its because i have always been the main caused.how long we havent go out already?sigh,ever since that night we went drinking together. i feeled our distance,esp didi and us,that is why i know sooner or later we would distant,and im afraid that day would come,that is why i choose to spend it with my friend instead,but like what i said,i balanced it wrongly.even though you guys had been forgiving me time after time,even though u guys said that i'll be welcomed back.but deep down,i dunno if i can anot.i have no guards to bring myself into ur life again.

sincerely,i am sorry. i am not fit to be a part of you three.

and also;

our four years plus of friendship just go down the drain like this.

you said i reminded you of her,than u choose to distant,than me leis?i dunno what is with the two of u,

one always accused me the other always neglect me.

maybe i guess this is the end of us.

we reali gotta go our seperate ways already.

and now im stuck here with my old friends.if u guys think tt im not affected,

than let me tell u i do.

guess it is the end.

whats life?

Friday, March 27, 2009 11:36 AM

life is full of fuck.
my parent doesnt want me?
all i get is upset news.
worser and worser upon hearin from mum.
than what about me?
dont they care about my feelings?

no more third time please=x.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009 12:14 PM

im back to the old joanna yong(:
thanks to frens who are concern.
esp to athari,ak,xiuting &lastly;cousin!(:.

i prefer it this way with you right now.
i like it the wae you make me feel loved,
the way you just make me blush and feel happy.
those messages you've sent to me,
and i hope all this will last as long as possible,hearts:]

im going clubbin agn tml ,
and this time with a bigger group of ppl:)
me,janelle,zac,shilah,zaki&sir boi.
pls,pls,pls!
i want athari to go!=x.
but i bet he will because he'll be workin full tml,
and he's realli tired after workin for three days straight.
poor mothari=x.
went to eat breeks with germaine todae:).
and the song breathless played,
eeyer i dont like okie!=x.
athari serve me lei todae!haas!XD

im slowly gettin back on track,
i wont be home tml,
i wont be home on thursdae night too.
fri's exam,and i think im free after tt:)
wanna asked me out?hees.
weekends will be fully packed too.
and i seriously cant wait till tuesdae!

i will be happy,
as long as you stays with me forever.
aiya silly,
its just infatuation:]
but still,
you got me thinking&thinking about u.:]

~~waiting for you,~~

im waiting for you,

right here.

~~till the end of time(:~~

God created you for my sake:].

Sunday, March 22, 2009 11:48 AM

the first time i ever saw you was at yishun blk 700+there.

i was there drinking when you walked passed.

i rmb saying the first sentence to you,

'oh so you're ah tan sister.'

the second time we met up was at fragrance hotel room 502.
i was drunk and you came together with sky and gwen.

so after that we started becoming really close,

and you were always there for me.

you bring lots of happiness into my life,

when i cried and walked under the rain,

it was you who pulled me back,

and took out your jacket just to shelter me.

you protected me from getting hurt and harm by others.

you never once disrespected me before.

to me,

you have always been my dearest didi,

someone who always cheer me up and ting wo de hua(;

all those things you've done;

-by doing all those stupid movement to make me laugh,

-by acting like sky and dancing like him,

-by tryin to teach me shuffle and ended up kickin my butt.

-by burnin me with your cigarette butt almost everytime.

-by doin the laser in suntec fountain for me.

-by owax singing cai hong and gan qing xian.

-by wantin to run cab down when im stuck in cck.

-by wanting to lend me ur shoulders to cry on.

-by showing attitude to everyone except for me.

-by telling me,'i wont cry de',and next moment you teared.

-by stayin in my hse and snatchin my new pillow,

-by playing pillow fight with me.

-by taking care of me when im drunk.

-by being the 'bartender' during ONS and gettin all my frens drunk.

-by behaving yourself when i asked you to.

-by everytime tonin and yet,never bath.(HAHAS!)

-by lying to me its nt painful piercin lips just to make me pierce with u.

-by everytime taking pictures of urself n keep on sayin tt u're handsome n cute.

-by irritating me every single time by call jiejie non stop.

-by trying to act like a really stupid retarded.

-by being so notourious till we all out of control of you.

-by calling me BU NA NA YONG.

-by complaining that we break our promises time after time.

-by disturbin me when i want to sleep.

-by thanking me for doting on you so much.

-by owax snatchin the psp and sae'one last game,one last game.'

-by asking from me cigarette everytime.

all those things you have done,

are always a part of my memories.

because you are tan xiuting,

and tt is why i doted on you so much.

i thank God for bringing you into this world.

because you are someone special in my life.

so happy birthday to you my dearest didi,

always remember that you come into this world for a purpose:]

nothing can express how much you mean to me.

iloveyoutxt!HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

what do friends treat me as?

10:19 AM

so i guess im the only fool who you'll lie to time after time?

so i've been stupid enough to believe all the things u say.

to trust you and get hurt again?

to cherish our frienship and end up being treated like a toy?

ive trusted you and care for you so much.

yet again and again u disappointed me.

with all those stupid lies and using me like a spare tyre.
i swear this time i hate the feeling.

and i hate you with all my heart right now.

you make me feel so dumb,

feel so stupid and foolish.

am i just someone who don't deserve to be loved by friends?

am i just any simple girl you'll never notice on the street?

am i just someone who you only find when u need help,

other than that just pump me aside at the corner and neglect me?

everyone also like that to me,

havent i tried my best in everything i do to make my friends happy?

ive tried so hard to stay strong,

to act as though nth happen and im fine.

yet again and again ,

when the wound is about to heal,

sth happen and struck me in my mind again.

and everything just go to the point of what happen all these years.

i know i shouldnt have blame 'it' for the things tt has been happenin.

but,

why me?

because only you know how destroyed i am.

because its you who planned it for me.

because its u who i seek comfort in.

so dear God,

heal me.

open up my heart and allow me to forgive.

give me strength to continue loving everyone around me.

what's lost,will never return.

Saturday, March 21, 2009 11:22 AM

slowly beginning to understand that what's lost will never return anymore.

no matter how vivid the memories is,

things will never be the same again.

no matter if the feelings is still there anot,

there's no point in trying to get back together anymore

i have finally understand the meaning of loving someone.

loving someone is to give in all you can,

but never asked for anything back in return.

and never rushed into love just because you feel lonely.

because one day ,

fate will eventually bring u to the right guy u've been waiting for:)

thank you God.

Friday, March 20, 2009 10:31 AM

expressing your hunger for God's love,through songs.

no harm hearing it esp when you're feeling emotionally,physically & spiritually tired.

the road ahead is still long as we began to think of the future.
everything happens for a reason in life.
God say he loves me because i'm his child.
so no matter what pain i have been sufferin from,
i know he will be there to heal this broken heart of mine.
things that i've been suppressing for a long time ,
God sees it all.

so just a little prayer for myself:
'Dear God,
take away all those sadness ive accumulated throughout all these painful years.
nobody know me better than you do.
take away all those pain and misery that i've been feeling.
wipe away all those tears that has been flowin down unknowingly in the night.
guide me through this period of time when i feel that the world is crushing down.
give me a heart of forgiveness towards people who have hurt me before.
let me have a peace mind whenever i am makin decision.
calm e down whenever i feel anxious .
give me hope to live on for tomorrow.
send the holy spirit to feel me with his presence.
for all these years,
you have always been there to give me strength.
and only you have not given up on me.
you're the only one who knows how i have been feeling.
may you take away all the hatred grown in my heart for my family n friends.
thanks you Lord,
for your unconditional love.
AMEN.'

it has been so long since i've seek God for comfort again.
after talking to my cousin pris and having her to pray for me,
i feel so much better.
and i believed that God sent her to talk to me,
and to pull me through all this.
i believed that she will be able to help me through this melancholy period.
thank you so much my cousin (:

i guess it should be time for me to worship God once more,
im a strong believer of God actually(:
but obstacles happens and eventually lose faith in him,
and started becoming really notorious.

i do believe that aunty mary will be watching me from heaven,
and i would be uphold in everyone's prayer.
like what pris has said,
if i don't love my father,
how am i supposed to love my heavenly father?
so i guess time is needed to heal those emotion and physical pain caused.

so i prayed that my friends would be able to stand by me now,

especially baby,didi & girl.

i hope u two will be able to remember that i still need you guys.

help me!=x

Tuesday, March 17, 2009 8:41 AM

i think im becoming more like a night owl.
i dun like to go out in the afternoon,
i wake up late in the evening.
omg,
and i have the mood to go out at night lahs=x.
and i only sleep in the morning when the sun is up.
awww..
help me,
i guess im realli suffering from insonmia lahs.
uh-oh and one last thing would be that,
I ALWAYS EMO THE MOMENT I STEP INTO MY TOILET!
unless i step out of it,
otherwise i would be an emotional freak in tt small cubicle!

i have to stop myself for attituding my two besties for no reason.
i dunno what has got into me lahs,
i am in freaking bad mood nowadays lo.awww=x
sorry to the two friends of mine.

im in freaking pissed off mood nowadays,
so i guess friends better watch out otherwise i wil scold for no reason.
i need to adjust my lifestyle once more=x.

bring me along to wherever you're going.

Monday, March 16, 2009 11:33 AM

was happy that i met up with janelle,
first time in 6yrs of knowing her,
she came up to my hse to knock my door! :)
while i was doing project halfway,
so no choice had to save it and go eat with her.
and met athari ard 930pm..
so went to cck and end up me n jan was stuck there.
reali a long story so dun intend to say it out.
janelle used my phone from full batt till batt empty .haas.
and we finally cab home at 130am!
thanks to OUR SUPER HERO YINJIE,who transfer us the money:)

what is happening to me once more?
im getting affected by it,
and although im tryin not to show it out,
but i know i couldnt lie to myself abt how im feeling.
& this time im seriously dwelling over what has been happening.
well im gonna tell myself to stand up on my own feet and not gonna be so weak anyone.

joanna yong,

be strong.

and even if anything that has been affecting u,

just get over it.

because you deserved to be happier than anyone else.

and u have to be strong and stand by those friends of urs who needs u.

你要勇敢的走下去.

不要在哭了.

everyone has been asking how have i been getting over everything,

and all i sae was im happier now .

i hope i realli mean it.

let this night be the last night tt i'll ever feel like this.

just put every heart ache aside and be who you are.

~~nolonger anymore disappointment.~~

love,love,love.

3:40 AM

im gettin bored nowadays because i have nothing to think about,

and i can just stone there starin up into space.

wahahahas XD. im realli so happy and more stress-free,

because after so long ive finally let go!:)

although wen i come to think of it,

heart stll got abit feelin awkward,

but im not realli caring already luhs.

you see , IM HAPPIER NOW :) hees.

anywae,

im just being bored and ive got nothing to do,

well gonna rush project now.

anywae ,

happy happy birthday renee choo shi yi! :)

my dearest friends.

Sunday, March 15, 2009 5:13 AM

after meeting athari,

i went down to meet the three of them,as usual:)

so we slack at bedok inter at first,

than headed to germaine's house downstairs.

we were really crappy that night,

with flooding of photos again.hahas XD.

alright,

such a fun day that night lahs.hahas.

supposed to not sleep and go out on fridae,

but end up all too tired sleep till 4plus in the evening..

than met at around 6plus in pasir ris.

the theme for that dae is RED skinnies and BLACK top.

four of us wore RED skinnies and walkaround.hahas.

went to grandlink to play L4D.

and i finally play finish one whole map :)

walked to geylang to eat dim sum before heading home.

xiuting came over my house to sleep.

and we have pillow fight!hahas XD.

slept at around 6am,

woke up by katherine at 11am.

heard that she got taiji at 2pm in grandlink.

so she came to my hse and germ fetch us to grandlink.

meet medaline there and the four of us just 'watch show',

while katherine was settling the problem.

first time i see girls 'fight'.

just push the head,kick here kick there.haas:)

end up the opposite party sae let the matter rest,

than we slack around there awhile,

than went to eat.

and daddy came to find me to pass me money:)

fetch us to expo to take mrt down bedok.

met up with two of my guy friend at bedok 204,

awhile later rachel,yinjie and valerie came down.

by than kat and xiuting alrady tipsy le.

help germaine pierce her tongue!hahas XD.

all of us pierce too.

its like a season of piercing lahs.

well,if im not wrong,

we drank 23bottles of singha and carlsberg,

waited for another girl to end work,

than we headed to east coast.

by than i was already little tipsy.

6of them went to play pool,

and the other four of us went to drink.

but i didnt really drink much at there..

xiuting couldnt get into the thai pub,

so no choice had to change venue.

than we went to geylang,

it was already 230am when we reached,

and all the pub there closes at 3am.

so cab again to boat quay this time.

went to amber 21 and OMG,

open a bottle of martell.

all of us were really kinda drunk by the time we finished.

so just in one night,

went to 4different places to drink.hahas XD

i was so disappointed in didi ytd,
was wondering why would i teach my didi until she became like that.
so disappointed.
but i guess she could sense it somehow,
and i hope she understands what im trying to say.

i finally deleted all his messages tt i save,

and i finally managed to let go of him:)

im neutral now,

i dun like anybody :)

im so happy for my friend.

congrats to you,

finally after so long.:)

i wanna make a vow to stay single for 1year,and im left with 6months to go,should i?=x

12mar09,a day out with athari.

2:57 AM

was out with athari to fresh bulggogi on thursday!:)
before that night,sky came over to find me under my block with 7frens of his.
and they were so noisy until so many police car pass by,
but luckily we wasnt caught.
followed by baby come down to accompany me and she uploaded sky's video in her blog:)
than was supposed to meet athari at 4pm,
end up delayed and met him in city hall at 530,
so we headed to airport,
and we were so full that day lahs omg!
mdm fye say athari wore helmet that day.
hahas LMAO, i was laughin non stop lahs.

so after eating we went to smoke.

and were so bored,thinkin where should we go..

and i realli took alot of athari's candid shot.

even when he took out every single thing in his bag,

turned it upside down and put it back,

wha i first time see athari so uncle sia.hahas XD

so we took mrt down to plaza sing,

walk around,

and decided to eat ice monster:)

athari took 6different post of how girls would take photos.

spoil girls images ahs he!=x

i like those candid shots below,

because i think he looks damn nice and damn unglam in some photos.hahas.

and did i ever mention that i like his eyes?

i think its super nice lahs pls!

so big and with the double eyelid.hoho.

i showed valerie the photos i took with athari,

and she sae athari's cute.hhaas.

athari,when u read this ,

DUN fly hor.:)

so its the last picture we took on that day,

wahahas, and after that went out own ways already :)

athari,

have i ever mention that im realli happy going out with you?

and that im really happy that we can actually go back to the past again?

our next food explorer place would be at clementi new shoppin mall alright:)

MEET UP SOON AGAIN :)

a little bit of everything.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 8:10 AM

a little bit of pain somewhere in my heart,
and i am feeling alittle uneasy.
but after all i slowly realise that i am geting over it.
i guess this time im reali over it bahs :)
slowly,slowly,slowly.
im becoming neutral:

MOLLY MOTHARI MOH;

SISTERS FOREVER?:]

i should enjoy myself:)

1:49 AM

i see so many of my friends in love and get hurt tremendously.
i see myself slowly slowly fading away from the love.
i guess its a good start:)
exams are around the corner.
and todae im gonna stay home and focus on my project:)
MOLLY,imissulei.hahas!
for everybody's information,
im not mia-in yahs?:)

i met siao-eh and ah tan korkor n ah siang ytd at yishun:)
i went down yishun with baby.
hahas im so happy to catch up with old friens.
and was realli happy for myself ytd,
becuase kat,ah tan and xiuting was realli emo-in when we slack at the void deck,
playing songs and smoking.
baby and ah tan so damn sad okie!
and xiuting cried.
than i was like stoneing there singing with them.hahas
but my emotions didnt get me away.
i DIDNT EMO AT AL,
for tt point of time with them lahs:)
so i feel that this is the first step of getting over him.
after tt went to east coast to drink.haas.
i had 'sore-eyes'.
my eys were damn red ytd lahs.

ytd sis text me and sae i disappointed mummy alot.
i feel damn affected by it,seriously.=x
she say whatever im doing irks her alot.
and i was so angry with ernest just now tt i scolded him damn badly.
he quarreled with ah ma and say that its all daddy's fault.
he wanted to get dad's number and call him to scold him.
say that he gamble,womeniser,and make mummy suffer so much.
i was damn f**kin pissed alright.
but come to think of it,
why should i scold him?
when he is actually right.
but well,
ive gotta admit that i side daddy.
no matter how much mum work like a slave bcuz of us,
i still prefer daddy.
maybe because i long wanted daddy to be back?:)
~~well,i love my dad.~~
and i should really try ways to coax ernest now.
otherwise he would black face me for weeks!=x

i wanna go back church,

after settling all that's in my way.

goodbye:)

i stare at your pictures and tears slowly flow down.

Monday, March 9, 2009 12:27 PM

i stared at your pictures for some time,
and suddenly realised that tears has actually flown down my crimson cheeks.
imissyousooomuch.
thanks for ur msg nowadays,
although i didnt replied at all.
but once ur name appeared in my phone,
i just feel so enlighted:)

even though im in the process of letting you go,

i still miss you so much:)

pulling myself out of this utopian world,

and slowly seeking for my happiness.

occupying myself to run away from pain :)

Sunday, March 8, 2009 1:54 PM

before i begin with my story,
i would like to warn all readers that there'll be spamming of pictures:)
AND FIRSTLY CONGRAT ME FOR BEING SINGLE FOR 5MTHS:)

sunday,080309
firstly SORRY to didi n baby lahs:(
for waitin at airport for 5hrs for me to end work lahs:( sorry.=x
had movie marathon the previous night,
and was supposed to drink.
but IM SO GUAI tt night,
i fall asleep before drinking.
and i heard they got high.hahas.
so headed towards bedok interchange long john for lunch.
i saw dingjie!:) my long lost brother. haas.
waited for medaline to come over.
AND YES,
after waiting of 1yr8mths for her to come out from girls hm,
I FINALLY GOT A CHANCE TO GO OUT WITH HER :)
didi played with me and my her shoe hit my toe.
and my toe nail CAME OFF AND BLEED!
so after eating,
we slack outside long john and realli took lots of pictures.=x
after that headed home to put down my stuff and went grandlink.
they teach me how to play life 4 dead.
baby and i scream until like what sia.
haas but it was gettin boring soon as the connection got lost.
so after that,
slack outside grandlink and didi did a dancestep call.. 'jumpstyle?'.
i should have taken the video from germ.
very nice sia the dance:)
all the way when she was dancing,
reminded me of sky.
hahas! sky also damn good at dancin to techno music:)

friday,060309
thursday night had movie marathon again.
we dress up until like damn old can!
but its been so long since we go out together dressed.hahas.
after that got change and went down to suntec career fair.
met daphne over there but end up went our seperate ways.
took a few pens n water bottle from school:)
haas because they were down there having a booth too:)
after that we damn budget that night:)
went over to eat kopitiam and everyone spend less than 5 bucks tt dae:)
(except for girl as she pay for cab fare:)
after that went over to fountain of wealth.
left baby and didi alone while me and germ went to take a sit:)
so they laser start and we were like crazy lahs,
videoing and runnin up n down to dedicate song and writing.
hahas!so touch can omg?
they three of them wrote for me:)
of cuz i wrote for them too.hahas.
katherine wrote one for her boyfriend,
and me n germ wrote for our lover.
even though none of them were there:)
after that we headed down to colours by the bay and emo.haas.
than headed home.
nothing much tt day but we were damn happy seriously:)

photos taken at fountain of wealth:)

when we were abt to take the pictures below,
i was like saying..
'didi, give a very very fortunate face.'
indeed,she realli give a damn happy face,
so lucky to be kissed by us please!hahas XD.