.the sweetest love of all.

this is the world.

Friday, September 21, 2007 7:53 AM

life has been gettin quite bored nowadays.sorri for long time no updates. i am feeling rather bored.hahas.i shall stop here.i have nothing to blog about also.yeah.i miss alot of things in life=x.

the world is so unfair,

the unfair treatment of the world.
its filled with pain and sorrow.
it hurts alot too.
the world is simply against me.
sigh.

torture.

Saturday, September 15, 2007 11:40 AM

i didnt get to see her todae n even talk to her.
what the hell.
she seems to be so...act one smart in english sia.
wth i read her blog.n she act as though her eng is so por.
when actuali it is so atrocious.

pottie here(:
jo is on top.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOEL!!!
hah
joanna yong, i love you forever(;
aisini.
byebye.

....

11:17 AM

nothing much happen nowadaes.yupp.anywae,congrats renee tt she found herself another new true love.hope she n her stead will last long=].

and....somehow,i ownself just feel that i dun even belong THERE.i tink i should jus get a life for myself.yeah....its time to move on,.wahahahas.=]

PS:I JUST DUN BELONG THERE*!

Thursday, September 13, 2007 4:33 AM

i will let u go tis time..
guess it time for u to explore this world le ba..
if someday u stil need mi again..
juz come back to mi..
i wil stil be the pig oink tat dote on u.. =)

this wad my pig write.omg.. sigh
i break down on the spot la..

sorri

goodbye.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007 8:36 PM

im sorri for hurting you so badly.

im feelin bad either.

you just dunno how hurtful it is for me to choose this decision.

in order not to hurt u two,

i have to let u two go.

but i noe u two will be able to go on with life well..

i jus have to suffer all this.

this is the only way to let u get away from me.

i dun wanna see any of u hurt anymore.

this is it frens,im sorri.

im gonna move on in life.

you have to move on too bah.

im sorri.but no matter wad,

the memories will always stays in my heart.

dun ask me why i choose it this wae.

i will not sae.

i will not cry at all..

im the one who choose it this wae,

i will not go back on my words.

sumtimes its hard to let go,

especially when the person means alot to u.

and when u always stick with him.

but everythin has to end soon,

joanna yong,old one go,

new one will come.

stand strong and let go.

this is wad u wanted.

and i believe u can.

it may hurts.

but u still have to go on with life.

i tink ive change.

i tink ive grown up.

so frens,u may go.

i will lead my life,perfect.

dun worry about me.

its time to set me free.

u can fang xin alreadi.

im no longer the small girl.

ive learnt to handle thin myself.

u can sae im heartless and everything.

everythin happens for a reason=]

3:42 AM

i got a new girlfriend le!haha todae,kelly moh xue ling!.haha i have to apologize to zann for flirtin behind her back=x.just kidding.my sweet girlfriend did this for me.she's simply jus wae too sweet le. KELLY MOH,i tink in class,beside kat...u are the other one i cherish alot bah.n jessica also.
at least they do show wad is real frenship about.i want to be alone.leave me alone.i onli wan kelly,pot,kat,irrtating and entertainer by my side.i tink all this is enough le bah....i reali reali wanna be alone.isnt it beta to be alone?kel,lets rock the steamboat place on sat yeah!

u stood by me when im feelin down.
thanks kel.
we have to stand strong together,
be happi together also okie?
muz smile together.
if u wan cry.tell me.
cuz i am stil here for u!=]
if u gt no fren,u wil stil have me.
yes,u are not born to please ppl.
but even if the person jus cant stand ur character,
u cant change jus bcuz of them.
its pointless.will dey noe how much u've endure bcuz of dem?
do dey see the wae ur heart brk for dem?
the wae u cry n lost ur smile?its not worth.
hack care dem!tts the sentence u tell me.
if i can do it,im sure u can too.
i dunno wads troubling u.
yes i feel useless cuz i dunno why ure sad.
but i noe one dae u will be okie soon.
veri veri fast.
cheer up KELLY=]

FAMILY-father and mother i love you
i wan a family too=x...
this is not the life i want.
please give me sum time n leave me alone.
i jus wan to be alone.

12:37 AM

if i cry,will u wipe my tears for me?
if im sad,wuld u comfort me?
if im hurt,wuld u heal the pain?
if im alone,wuld u be by my side?
if im lost in the darkness,wuld u be my light?
if im scare,wuld u hold me tight?
if i made a mistake,wuld u make it right?
if im weak,wuld u give me strength?
if i wan u,wuld u wan me too?

a word 'sorry' n u ended our story=[

its a mistake we've all made.
a mistake that break n tore everyone apart.
a mistake which no one wuld eva expected.
a mistake that causes everythin..
to be nvr the same again=[

its a sad path for us..
but stil,we have to choose.
we have to accept the fact..
a fact that need time..
for everyone to accept..
sth that tore us apart..
n sth that breaks us up=[

a lie which has been kept in the dark..
a lie which is breakin everyone's heart.
a lie which no one had eva expected.
and
a lie which leads everything to hatred.

i have a nightmares
which i have to be strong,
n to accept the fact.
a nightmares,that causes me,
to be so torn apart.
the choices u've made,
break everyone apart.
wont u understand?

untold lies___
which has been revealed=[

i dun wan to hear tat u are goin.

i thot that u wuld be my fren,

i dun wan to be left anymore.

u told me that u love me,

it was stupid of me to believe.

we are too young to even feel tt wae.

but i nvr thot tt u would leave,

i cant turn back the clock.

i wouldnt ever wan to hurt u.

i nid u to be my rock,

i cant delete u from my life,

i tink abt u everydae.

but i cant make u lyk me again..

all i could ask is,

would u please stay?

im nt askin much from u!=[

i can never take back those love i once gave u.

i can pretend,that nothin ever happen before.

i cant find the direction back to the startin point,

when i first love you.

i will have to pretend that i dun love u anymore.

i will have to pretend that no history ever happen before.

i will have to get this clear,thats theres no longer any chemistry for us.

i need to fake a wide smile out when i see you,

i need to fake it out that im leadin a happi life.

i need to turn away before my tears ever fall.

i need to get u out of my mind,i cant handle the pain.

i want to scream it out loud,

that i still love you!

u noe ure in love

when the hardest thing

to sae is GOODBYE.

i once love u,

n now i stil do.

Make Love Letters at Blinkyou.com

my love for you

will slowly fade away

as the picture of ur smile

slowly fade away from my mind

i live and die for u.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007 11:37 PM

my favourtie donut!my auntie n irritating bought it for me.haha but i still prefer wad my auntie buy...so nice!banana toppin seh!hahas yeah=]

this is me n janelle on webcam while we are talkin on the phone.haas..veri veri funny.
oh well..continue my daily life story.hahas.im still having rashes.below is a picture of how my rashes look like on my leg.it hurts!and imagine me havin this ugly 'look like mosquito bite thingy 'practically on my whole body!

oh well...i went to see doctor todae .i waited nearly for two hours,ALONE!this is so not me.hahas anw,i got two daes mc... so kelly n kat,see u two in school on fridae!i miss u two!=]

i didnt reali sleep well yesterdae night...and my grand mama woke me up at 946am todae mornin ,ask me go and see doctor!hahas...ytd nite oinkoink wait for me to sleep first den she went home..but i chatted with her from twelve thirty all the best till 3 am lahs.i was so furious ytd..i kept complaining and complaining.ARGH!!!

i am start to loathe someone.
simply becuz of the attitude she gave me.
she so girlish for wad sia?
so old alreadi still so childish.
wa biang ehhx...
go be gay beta sia..
even a bung also wont so girlish lei.
always bloggin abt my bad point.idiotic.
never see a post abt me which is good lah.
not even sae im cute or wad..
onli noe how to sae i make her sad...
stupid lah...
go be gay beta.
she veri nice i noe.
but than...
like not veri good also..
in church see her,
she always sae i pangseh her lei.
what the hell.hmmm....
i dunno.
i think i had enough of her.
dun wanna stand her anymore.
i hate her to the core!she sucks...
she reali suck suck suck!
*dun ask me who,
cuz i will not sae.
identity has been change.
onli my close fren noe who im tokin abt=]

im gonna let you be,
u moron!

about me.

8:28 AM

please do this quiz for me.thanks.hahas.
http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/1005178

its not good to be kind sometimes.

4:14 AM

entertainer n my conversation,

see carefully.our nick=]

im so bored!

hahas.

twisted a side

i feel like a shit.sigh...when my fren are sad,im not doin anything.
i dunno wad to do.this is so shity. and im accuse for snatchin my fren boyfriend.
no..this is not the wae.i onli wanted to help.is there any wrong in tryin to help others from sufferin break up?im not in love,i dun wan to see anyone breakin up...its so torturing.im onli tryin to help...
am i not of any help?!?!?!

i hate myself!!!

im badly affected.

here it goes.

1:06 AM

i tink i wil wan to choose to be alone.
its beta to do everythin alone.
at least theres no troubles everywhere.
i tink im quite sick of all those irritatin troubles they give.
f**K of people!
leave me alone!

ps;its beta not to be in love.
love will never last.
and it hurts terribly.

i will onli wan to slowly wait on.
sigh,i wan her back.
this may be torturing.
but i guess it will let time prove.
slowly prove tt my frenship,
for her is all true.
but maybe its best to be left alone.
i reali wan to concentrate on my studies.
and people,please leave me alone.
its time for another complete changes.

entertainer,cheer up.
dun always keep it to urself.
even though people may not noe how to help u.
but at least u did share ur problem with sumone.
u make me veri worried for u.
i can feel ur heart break.
i noe u have been reali upset.
but i will stand by u.
i may show as though i dun care.
but once u're my entertainer,
u will always be.
forever okie?
dun always keep it to urself.
i promise i will always be ther.
whenever u're sad ,
u will always have me.
i will make u happi.
make u smile again.
i wan to see my entertainer being happi happi.
u tell me all ur problems,
i will help u burden it okie?
i promise.

leave me alone!

its an exhausting dae.

Monday, September 10, 2007 11:20 PM

yesterdae i went to eat steamboat.hahas...so nice.i eat four crab!im having rashes.but i still tgo and eat.jus keep on scratching myself there.yesterdae is a disater.but luckily i never quarrel with yinjie.that's the last thin i wanted to do.but i quarreled with zh.sian sia. im not reali in the mood to fight.wha he scold me KANINA. i was so shocked.oh well anywae,i tink ive been too sticky to zhihao le.i muz not be so sticky to him...muz change.cuz i go anywhere also....call his name.hmmm...
i hope i could hear another last time from wendy,katherine,jaz n esp germ n jan..tt to them,im veri important.i miss those times tt i noe they care alot for me.but at least i still got yinjie ,zhihao,pot n someone else...i dun wanna go on with quarreling with them....and i hate it when sumone dunno how to give in to me!i finally noe tt nobody actualli understand me n how i feel.i have alot of things to sae.but i dunno who to tell to.there is sumthin tt i keep inside me.i cant voice out.who will actualli understand n listen to me?

i miss janelle,germaine.but i believe that i miss janelle more than i miss anyone else.
i wan her back.i wan our friendship back.im still waiting for her.sigh...
does she miss me as much as i miss her? will she miss me as much as i miss her? oh no....i miss the past alot. i guess...tryin to make myself not to think about her is impossible. but i do believe that she will still go on with life very fine. at least i noe ah bee will take care of her=] janelle,i miss u=[

i think you've change.
n ive change too.
but i still hope,
we'll be the best of frens.
jux like how we were.
when we first met.
i miss u.
seriously.
wanna be close to u once more.
specially go down find u when ure down.
pei u in whatever u do.
buy u spongebob toy when u want it.
share cigg with u when u dun have.
listen to ur problems when ure sad.
stay at ur hse with you.
eating lots of different kind of snacks.
accompany u to jiemei's hse to find her.
be a lightbulb there.
laugh n even cry together sumtimes.
quarrel n get jealous over small stuff.
happi moments we shared together,
i hope uve nt forgotten.
the small little promises we made.
to graduate together,
n next time when u have ur own house,
u will have a cupboard filled with different brand of cigg.
and u allow me to choose.
you still remember?
i hope u do.
still muz go red house together next time with jiemei.
i hope u noe i mean well for you=]

ps:do u still remember this entry?

KELLY,CHEER UP! U STIL HAVE ME!LOVES*
i wan u to smile like before.

ure still my girlfriend=]

i hate this illusion.

Sunday, September 9, 2007 11:45 PM

i noe i maybe at fault sometimes.
but im immature.
im childish.
you should have known tt i needed sumone to pamper,
and even to give in to me.
why cant u just understand?
i dun like this.
i hate it.
this is reali exhausting.
i dun wanna be like this.
sigh....life is so...

torturing!

ps; this is not the wae i wan it to be.

its goodbye time=]

im not gonna sae that it'll last.

3:29 AM

hey you,

look out there right now.

ure not the one that i love.

and truely,ure not the one.

i dun give a damn to how ure treating me.

i'll remember clearly that u said its all over.

I can remember the very first time I cried

How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside

All of my memories - good and bad - that's past

Didn't even take the time to realize

now that i noe,its all too late.

i loathe the shit tt u have given me.

i dislike you for being such a biased bastard.

i dun wanna do this anymore.

i guess by now you may have seem the changes.

its not you tt lives in me.

this is me,

myself.

but its not the spirit tt dwell inside.

im gonna work things out,all alone.

that person's driving me insane.

call me insane if you want.

im totally having obsession.

people sae tt its time im gonna profess.

but no body get it into their tiny brain tt everythin would fall apart.

it would end.

time would have to stop.

it wouldnt even pause for a moment.

cuz time's running out.

oh well...this is just life.

its destiny.

we all have to move on.

we all have a long road ahead of us.

and i have mine too.

im not gonna let u steal my daydream.

u have to be outta my life.

for sure,i warn u.

please tell me why

this is causing me to be slighted.

i hate this feeling i get.

tell me where can i go will u?

im tired of ur big bad love.

i get myself a new nick name.

im called insane.

name me after that.

ask me why?

cuz is u that's driving me crazy.

u make me so mad.

i dont like u.

but i do love u.

but goodbye=]

my love for you is BOMBASTIC-/

3:11 AM

me n ('oo') during pot's chalet=]

me and ah yeo in the cab to zoo.haha

ah yeo took a picture of me being the giant elephant.

ah yeo yeo as a elephant.hahas

did you see yinjie photo?but xiner claim tt its me=x

does it seems like its during the night time?haha.

omg!skeleton...

i had an enjoyable dae for the past one weeks..haha i went zoo with xiner...and den to fort canning.i sound as though i went for a tour around singapore.haha...

this isnt you.

Saturday, September 8, 2007 10:49 AM

moron,this is not you.
the one i use to know.
ure having a complete change right now.
and if ure going on with life like this,
ure not going to end up anywhere.
i may show as though i dun care.
but deep down i do.
i am a human with feelings.
i do show some care.
im not as heartless.
its just that people usually get sick of certain thin sum times.
and rite now i grow up,
u all should have too.
dun sae i dun need either of you.
cuz u three is the one i reali need.
al three of you are just childish thinking people,
please wake up.
its time .
i noe u do dote on me.
but this is not the right wae.
jus simply giving attitude is all tt u can do.huh?
wake up.

ps:an entry for an aged 19+,17+ and 16+ human beings.

it hurts.

9:23 AM

im not gonna sae anything.
i will just let u be.
u sae u needed me but i doubt tt u reali do.
u make me feel as though there's no one out there.
u dunno how much its hurtin me.
u dunno how much im needing u.
i noe u sae tt life still has to go on.
but it wouldnt be perfect without u here anymore.
this pain is causing me nightmares.
ive been thinkin of u lately.
ive been wanting u back into my life.
even though ure here with me,
but a part of u has alreadi go away.
please tell me how am i suppose to move on.
ure the one i need.please tell me how to go on.
i cant sae anything anymore.
u just dun belong to me.
u've left me here.
gal;there's nth i can do.
i can onli see the wae u walk away ,
leavin me all alone here.
i hear ur voice,
it melts my heart.
i tried to get close to u.
i wanna give u a hug.
but i dun have the courage to.
i hear the wae u tok about others in front of me.
oh no its reali killing me.
please give me some pills to cure my pain.
the dae you went away,
i thought u would look back n return to me.
but oh no,ive been waiting so long.
i guess its reali time.
i have to move on.
u jus dun belong to me anymore.
i wanted to be more than a fren with u.
but i guess i can onli be a little too self centred.
u said tt i am.
i said tt im not.
i guess ure the one instead.
u rather want to be happi n choose to leave me here.
i dunno wads the reason u've left.
but i did change.
im just waiting for u.
deep in my heart,
every single time i see u,
i wanna go up to u n hug u.
like how we use to hug each other.
i didnt realise tt the dae ,the hug,
was meant to be the last.
take back those pain in my heart.
give me the direction ,
back into your heart right now.
im going no where now.
theres nth to describe the melancholy deep inside me.
i have to count the steps tt u take,
i hope by than when i take the steps too,
it'll be the dae when im back into ur heart.

BABY;hurry back into my life.
every single dae,
having to wait on u,
is like having to mend a broken heart slowly.
u should noe tt my tears for u is like the falling rain,
the one that need u forever,
is me.
i swear tt im not gonna be possesive anymore.
i promise that all this is gonna last.
and im gonna swear,
its just the beginning.
not the end=]

hey sweetheart,

u're causing pain in my heart.

and it's not gonna work.

u're not healing it just by walking away.