Friday, December 18, 2009 9:43 AM
boyfriends soundly asleep right now,
and im feeling a little mixed up with my own feelings.
ive decided to quit jacks place after a long 8 mths of struggles.
i mean,
i was and i still am workin in there,
but somehow many things just cropped up,
and resulted in me being unhappy with the ppl im workin with.
temporary baby's workin at MSQ jackplace too.
and ive got alot of plans going on.
i mean,
everythin i jus wan and hope i can help him out smoothly.
whatever it takes,
i will do it.
today baby took his results.
it wasnt tt good at all.
but anywae,
tts over and what is important now is the future.
ive planned to quit jack place AND I GUESS my last day of work is on 31dec.
i couldnt stand workin there any longer,
and whatever it is,
i jus wish tt i will get out of that place as soon as possible.
all my friends have their own things to do,
and i cant deny tt i have been companyin my boyfriend for this past few weeks.
some how it seems like the whole world only revolves between the two of us.
and if YJ you were to read this,
i would jus like to ask..
why are u getting drunk every single day?
and how has life been for you?(:
because no matter how far this road of life has to be,
end of all we stil must continue to walked on.
and as long as u are always there to hold onto me when i fall,
it'll be than that i'll be contented enough.(:
baby i love you.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009 12:02 AM
just one question,
do you realli love me?
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 11:54 PM
a little bit of pain,
add to even more bits of pain.
and it resulted in a huge bit lies you said.
you'll be the first i will forgive,
because i dun wan us to end yet.
sigh,
it hurts so badly.
Sunday, December 13, 2009 9:29 PM
a moment like this,
was spent with you.
because of you ive found true love.
at least u dun purposely make me jealous,
you dun purposely make me cry,
you didnt do anything like how our f**ker did to me.
i feel blessed when i come to think of u and me.
i dunc are what others say about us.
i jus noe that we should rove to others that we are stable.
baby i love u so much,
and thanks for being there for me when i needed someone.
thanks for everything u have done to me.
although this is jus the beginnin,
i believe that time will let our lvoe grow even more in the future.
thank you so much for loving me.
ive never regretted giving u this chance.
and i nvr loving u as well.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 9:36 AM
because you're the only one,
who makes me feel like this towards you.
because you're the one,
i feel so happy with.
although this is only the beginning,
but i want this to last.
you make me long for even more from you.
i dun dare to get even closer to you.
because i scare you leave me.
todae i somehow feel afraid.
when u told me how you feel.
i dun like the feeling that im giving u right now.
baby i wan to company you when u are working,
i wan to lend u my shouler to lie on when u are tired.
i just wan you.
i hate the insecure feeling that i have in me.
everybody has been sayin that this is too fast for us.
but being with u,
it makes me feel that we have been together for very long already.
i wan time to faster faster pass..
so both of us can each the future together.
it may not be forever,
but i wish it can be..
for as long as we wan it to be.
jeffrey eng ching rong,
i reali love you.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 3:43 AM
i am officially together with jeffrey eng ching rong.
perhaps it may be fate that brought us even closer,
although both of us have a part of us which stil holds onto something else,
but as long as both try our best to let go,
i believe we will last long.
as for andreas and chris part,
both of u have made me really really tired.
therefore i choose a relationship that is my new future instead of holding on to the past.
no matter how much i cannot let go,
i still have to.
andreas,
if u are reading this,
i wish to tell u that this time im over u.
i wish tt u would be happier.
and if u dunno how to cherish me before,
it means u will nvr noe how to.
there's so many things i wanna say,
but i will just dun care about it and ignore.
you are right,
i am not as childish already.
so you dun have to worry.
as for my greatest wish to chris :
you are still young and i wil stil dote on u like a younger brother.
i miss those times when u truely laugh out loud n happily.
so please,
just promise me u will continue doing so.
work has been rather stress nowadays,
i brought boyfriend over to parkway to mit janelle n zac ytd..
than i stay in airport with JAZMIN CHEN MEI SZE,
wait for him to end work in the morning.
after which immediately head down to work in MSQ.
even until now,
one day plus already,
i still havent sleep.
first time i sooo power.hahas.
waiting for him to come over to my hse now
and maybe going drinkin with mummy.
im so happy i met up with jaz ytd,
because finally after so long,
which is like two yrs plus...
we finally met up!!!(:
i will upload the photo very soon.
hahas but so nice of her to pei me lahs.
although we nvr mit each other for sooo long,
but there is actually so many thing we havent catch up with each other.
and we still tok alot of craps together.(:
hahas im glad we dun feel awkward but we chatted alot throughout the night.
and indeed there's sooo many changes between us.
hope to be closer again dearest!(:
Thursday, December 3, 2009 7:33 AM
when u played piano for me,
my tears just fall.
because its beautiful.
the melody is sooo beautiful.
you told me that song reminds you of us.
its the song that brought us closer..
i missed you,
and those days we were out together.
hugs.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 7:24 AM
im getting tired.
im getting used to it..
the days without you.
