i wont sae i get into wad course for ite and wad campus.
hahas seriously.
alright.
i wanna be the bride maid for my cousin wedding.
hahas!!!
next week.
i wont blog much,
nights loves=]

Things in the past, things yet unseen,
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true,
All of my hopes, all of my plans,
My heart and my hands are lifted to You.

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour
I know for sure, all of my days are held in your hands, crafted
into your perfect plan
You gently call me into your presence guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart, I know you're drawing me to yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Take me, Mould me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

you gentlly call me into your presence guidin me by your holy spirit
teach me dear lord to live through your eyes
i'm captured by you holy calling
set me apart, I know your drawing me to yourself
lead me lord i pray

dear jesus christ,
lead me on.

im being emotional.
im being suffocated with my own problems.
i feel...stuck inside.
and i think i seriously need to breathe some fresh air.
i think,
i'll see to your leaving.
cause u have alreadi fallen for someone else.
but before you're realli gone for good,
i just want to say
tt i do love you.
i think ive been rather weird recently.
argh~
what happen to me sia?
im rather emotionally unstable right now.
im quite destroyed deep inside my heart.
hahas~i think im just being so weird.
but ...i also dunno what i want.
phew~heart pain.
mind just feel so corrupted.
i want to go church~
alright im kidding=x

lets see..
what am i thinking of?
how am i feeling?
alright i shall sae..
i feel lost.
unloved.
a part of my life is missing.
i feel sad.
feel...depressed?
i want to take my sorrow away.


Dear god,
im praying to you now.
please come and touch my heart.
please tell me wad am i supposed to do.
breathe into my soul,will you?
my soul cries out for more of you...


as i think,
my tears just flow..
i feel...
miserable.

this is what i took over the past few days=].
alright.
i have been emo-ing nowadays.
just hope to get myself drunk and not to dwell over anything.
just hope to run away from reality.
speechless~

firstly,
zhihao,i know you will read this post.
i just want to sae,
i miss you.
and i want you back into my life.
im going to work soon.
and i will pay you back the money reali soon.
sorry to drag it so long..
please contact me once you read this.

friday i went to meet jan than meet up with gek ming as well.
than go boat quay,access room the pub and drink.
but first time i wasnt drunk..hahas.
supposed to go sentosa with jan and all on sat.
but i overslept.
when i wake up,
i meet up with germ and go tm.
went to buy some stuff.
than go to bedok and meet daddy,jeff n siang korkor.
after tt went to east coast to cycle.
samuel come down...
wha he is reali a mad man sia..hack him...
alright than daddy gonna leave soon=x..
after tt germ,daddy n jeff n samuel go off..
leave me n siang at the beach..
than we talk alot.
korkor super dote on me=].
yupp than yinjie come..
than yinjie and kor can click sia...
hmmm than go yinjie hse and ton..

sunday wake up at 5plus than go home..
than go cineleisure meet siang korkor watch ps:i love you.
suppose to watch with tt sky de..
than i saw jack..wha super suay eh.hahas..
in cinema,
kor keep disturb me lo..
than after tt meet yinjie n sherry watch kung fu dunk..
haha finish le went home tok to daddy for 4 hours plus on fone.
than tt sky call me..than ya lo like that...
yesterdae didnt go anywhere..
than todae i went opposite school to meet my meimei..
than i bought her donut..
went ktv with germ..
than after that i meet up with sky n gwen..
than gwen super funny.
alright.sky change alot..
i feel so shameful that he's my ex boyfriend.
sigh...
alright.
im having a mixed up feelings now.
i want to leave those people in yishun..
im worried about it..
im stressed..sigh

i wanna fall in love.
but i dun wanna be in love.
i wanna love him.
but i dun wanna be with him.
i wanna get the pain out of my heart.
i wanna take the hurt away.
i wanna get u out of my mind.
i wanna forget you.
i wanna let everything go.
i wanna sae...
i miss you.
we have finally ended.
we have finally let everything go.
we have finally bid goodbye.

alright i applied my ite courses already,
im gonna wait for the results to come out.
yesterdae went hotel.
germ was the first to get drunk.
followed by ah siang korkor..
den i still take care of him.=].
later on,samuel and balls came over.
yinjie also.hahas.
than i was drunk..
too many words to say..
i was drunk.
end up baby and auron kor came down..
sorry baby,didnt listen to you..
keep on drinking.
end up sky n didi n gwen came down too..
alright..it was a crucial night sia.
i hate it too la okie.
end up here and there...many many story..
end up i went hospital.
I SWEAR NEVER TO THINK OF DYING..
CAUSE THE NEEDLES AND ALL ARE SO SCARY.

happy valentine day to all!=]
todae woke up at 4pm..
hahas slept like pig like tt.
alright..than rush down to bugis mit germ..
den mit ah siang korkor together also.
hahas...go to see the dunno wad wad shop la..
all those punk n loita de.whees~
than cab down to bishan meet johnathan,derek and jeffery.
hahas...so sweet of kor,
buy me hp accessories.
than johnathan buy me chip n dales stuff...
with a rose.
hahas wha he's only my __ _____.
than so goos to me.
sky oso dunno die until where.
didnt contact me.
alright.i tink im in the process of letting go..
im over him soon=].
there's no way we can patch i think.
he want me back..
but i just cant be with him.
he sae tt he will change for my sake.
but i think,he still love himself more bahs.
than go down yishun meet up with samuel..
saw jayson korkor=].
than after that meet up with apple and their frens...
valentine dae,
i spend it with my friends instead of lover.
hahas..
than went bedok to meet my ex colleague.
he gave me a pair of hp accessories
and ask me to give it to my future boyfren=].
did thought of messaging sky..
but i noe..
msg oso no use.
i wan give up le bahs..
hahas...he ask me to wait on for him,
but i dun think so i will.
yishun has too memories.
i think its best we all stay as friends instead=)

goodbye my love.
i dunno if i should cry cause its over between us.
or i should smile cause we were once together.
i still love you deeply,
i realised my feelings hasn't fade at all.
but i have to let you go.
you said that steading with me always end up u get beaten up.
but let me tell you,
this is not the truth.
wo hai ai zhe ni.
but i need to let you go.
you can actually dump me alone at clarke quay,
when im drunk.
you can actally hack care when they all test you.
i know you are afraid of coming down cause you scare will get beaten again.
tt night when i sae i want to break with you,
you immediately rush down to clarke quay and find me.
but end up,i noe u feel betrayed.
im sorry if i make u feel this way.
i noe u love yourself more than u love me.
i feel pain in my heart.
i long to hear you say that you still love me.
stop pushing me back to others.
cause u should know my heart still has you.

sometimes i wonder if ur existing is real.
or could it be my imagination only.
if break up is nothing to you,
than you have never loved me before.
for this i know,
we are never meant to be.
and we can never be together again.
i did all my best to cherish you for this 19 days.
i know ive truely loved you before.
i know i did tiong xin you.
i know i never hurt you .
i know i truely love you.
240108 to 100208~and we end it all.
i thank you for the love you gave me.
before i go,
i just want to say,
mr sky,
thank you for your love,
i love you;goodbye.

pot meimei,
i missed you.
i dunno if u feel the same.
but i noe u feel the distance between us.
i noe u feel tt we have drifted.
i used to receieve ur msg hourly.
but now..
not even receieving it daily.
i noe u have moved on.
i did too.
but i'l look back at times when we are together as close sister.
nobody noe me as much as u do.
nobody used to care for me as much as u do too.
but now ure gone.
and im gone too.
we used to be reali close..
sigh..i dunno who u like.
cause u no longer trust me.
i feel...
miserable?
perhaps tts the word i will use.
theres so much we left unsaid.
theres so much we have yet to do together.
pot pot pot pot pot!!!!!!!!
i miss u!!!
those days we go beach together,
those days we sat at ur house downstair n cry.
those times we go airport together.
we didnt even catch a movie together yet.
we are link,
yes we are.
but i dunno how long our link can last.
i dunno how long we are gonna be xin you ling xin yi tian tong.
i noe u do like her.
i just hope she will not hurt me.
i noe u are afraid of letting me know tt its her.
sigh...just dun wan her to hurt u.
meimei,
please take care.
u noe,
i'll be gone for good.
i hope u will take care.
my little girl has alreadi grown up.
i'll let u fly.
just promise me tt u will be independant.
girl,i feel the pain.

happy new year to all!=]
new year eve was alright.
haha went down to chinatown and see firework.
with john,kat n sky.
happy two weeks to u mr sky=].
oh well.haha.
den went clubbing..
was abit drunk.
and stupid sky leave me alone in clarke quay
and went home.
attitude me and den go.
wth!
alright.
new year..
didnt collect much.
i won 103dollars.
haha should have taken the 218dollars.
but den stupid wan play on den lose the money.
hahas..
after that rush from home to tamp to yishun
den yishun to bugis..
hahas.went down yishun just to pass daddy alcohol and cigarette.
mr sky pay for my movie ticket.
haha watch e ah long pte ltd.
not reali v nice and all.
and at shaw tower,
i saw JACK!
hahas.den i scare him also.
woo~see him i super high seh.
den my hubby jealous.
hahas but alright..
after tt went down to bugis and mit wang zi and another guy.
kat n sabrine stay there whil me,sky n xiao gui go clubbing.
but reach there,the person dun allow xiao gui to go in.
haha cause he look so underage.
i can go in,means i reali look old=[..
hahas..kat n sabrine came down after tt..
didnt go club.
we wanted to open the novotel hotel to sleep de.
but one night 307bucks..
hahas den end up slacking at clarke quay..
slept there den police come and screen us.
sky so scare sia cause he got probation de
haha but nothing happen wor...

i feel that my feelings has somehow faded for him.
but still,
im left with like..
9 more days eh.
kinda sad ya?
his birthday approaching on 13feb..
well,just hope to celebrate his birthday with him.
i dun wanna think much.
for the next few days,
im gonna be bored.
sat-go romantic with germ.
sun-go buy clothes.
mon-go out with ah siang,daddy,kor n others.
tues-book me out!i dunno where to go.haha.
wed-hubby's birthdae.
thurs-v dae!=].
nnothing much i guess.
im waiting for my cousins and all to come my hse n bai nian.
haha and also waiting for my frens to come too..

i saw zh today.alright wonder if he still cares for me.but ya. He also another one say i got illness de.hmmm. Sad.well,i do miss him.:)really alot. But i doubt he misses me. Hopefully he do ba. Yj used to say i haven reali forget all my ex.well. I know tat there's two i didnt really completely forget.but still,they've left.:)i'm left with eleven days with sky.didnt meet up with him today.yesterday night was a disaster!i was drunk. Ah siang too.but he very dote on me somehow. I slap sky more than ten times yesterday.well.new year's approachin real soon.gosh.. Nothin much to say.just that,i miss someone.:)

i hate it.
i hate this feelings.
i wanna end it all.
fuck.
this is so torturing.
i cant stand it.
i wanna leave.
i wanna go.
i feel our distance.
i feel the pain.
korkor,
u noe how much i care.
u noe how much i love u .
dun let me sae the word disown.
dun let me feel tired of this frenship.
u noe i care.
u noe i teng u de.
sigh dun test me will u?
dun make me disappointed and sad.
if one dae u disown me,
i will cry.
i will tell u how much i dun wan u to disown me.
i will be hurt.
i will be upset.
i will miss u alot.
kor,
but if u ever ask me,
if one dae u disown me how..
i will sae,
i will let u go.
cause i dun wan korkor to see me sad.
i dun wan kor to worry for me.
if disown me,kor will be happi ,
i will let kor disown me.
kor,
meimei love u.
please take care of urself.

i hope we can be frens again.
cause you know i text you.
i know u do know tt i miss you.
is not tt i stead with sky and neglected you.
but i reali hope u will find time to mit up with me.
just before we reali sae goodbye,
at least we sort it out.
i know u would be reading this post.
i know u know who are you.
you once use to dote on me alot.
you once use to care.
but time pass,
and both of us have changed.
i still will say,
i miss you.

you doubt me continuously.
u just dun believe that i only have you.
you keep on saying that you trust me
but deep down you dont.
stop hurting me.
i believe i dun deserve all this shit.
if all this continue,
lets just end it.
cause im seriously tired of all this.
you hurt me tremendously.

♥`joanna.
♥`28june1991.
♥`music is everything to her.
♥`baby steps towards life.
♥`sentimental&emotional.
♥`materialistic&possesive.

('v')YOU WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF ME.('v')

PRECIOUS LOVE.
♥KATHERINE baby.
♥XIUTING didi.
♥JANELLE sister.
♥MIRA meimei.
♥ATHARI molly.
♥SHILAH babe.
♥WILSON boyfriend.
♥JANUS sweets.
♥EMERSON didi.
♥GERMAINE aunty.
♥AK darling.

FAMILY LOVE.
❥daphne.
❥ernest.
❥rachel.

FRIENDS LOVE.
★diana.
★alicia.
★chris.
★kelly.
★yuting.
★jazmin.
★renee.
★esther.
★zhihao.
★seri.
★nikki.
★ivy.
★amelia.
★mingyi.
★wendy.
★xiner.
★ak.
★priscilla.

SCHOOL LOVE.
✯zara.
✯aida.
✯rena.
✯suhaiza.
✯alicia.
✯lisa.
✯suzlynn.
✯bernice.
✯sherilyn.
✯tabitha.