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Sunday, August 31, 2008 1:18 AM




QUIZ QUIZ QUIZ.
1. The person who tag you this is:daphne yong. =)

2. Your relationship with him/her is:*LAUGHS. my sister lahs.,someone so lame please. n FIERCE!

3. Your five impression of him/her:
a) naggy person
b) independent woman
c) extremely strict n have no feminie side.hahas XD
d) a good sister(sumtimes)
e) pig.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:my birthday last year she give me 20 bucks.haas.,

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:sth i will rmb,but its a bad thin.hahas she sae even if i die in coffin,she oso wont cry=x

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:please lei.at home enough chaos liao lahs.hahas

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:IMPOSSIBLE.i will FAINT

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:accept it.see her almost everydae.hahas

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:im too over self centered n selfish i guess.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:pray for her my jie fu will not break her heart.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:strong person.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?:im nice but too dramatic.

13. The characters you love of yourself are:too loyal to frens.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:sensitive. tends to think alot.angry easily.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:nobody ehs.ahhas.like wad ive said,no such thin as fairytale.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:thanks for being my fren n standing by my side,endurin all my nonsense=]

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
#1. germaine(i hope u will learn to grow up)
#2. janelle(hope we will be reali frens for long)
#3. katherine(baby,hope we can be as close)
#4. yinjie (thanks for owax standing by me)
#5. zhihao(even though we are not as close,but memories still linger on=])
#6. renee(stop suanin me everytime!tsk!but i know u misses me=])
#7. ah siang(forever so dunno how to think,give up on hope u ar.haiyo)
#8. thomas(oh man,i miss u lah please!!)
#9. alicia(meimei,u still e one i dote on most=])
#10. szeching(u n ur lameness!hahas love lahs sister)

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?yy lahs.hahas

19. Is no.9 a male or female?i just said,'MEIMEI'.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?hahas.both malaysian.but think sc will jus go crazy.hahas

21. What is no.2 studying about?multi media course=]

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?two days ago.hahas

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?i noe i noe!!! britney 's baby one more time..n some sentimental love song,would u be there... n more.hahas see i noe him so well!!

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?older sister=]

26. Will you woo no.3?no.but shes my baby=]

27. How about no.7?siao!

28. Is no.4 single?she got girlfriend.hahas.

29. What is the surname of no.5?MR CHEE=]

30. What's the hobby of no.4?smoking? n takin care of me.hahas.

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?yes.once apon a time.hahas

32. Where is no.2 studying at?bedok ite

33. Talk something casually about no.1:someone who i care for n hope she will grow up to THINK lohs.

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?ehs..what a question.hahas we are just BEST Frens V V V CLOSE frens.n he's my'sister'.hahas i still love him lahs!!

35. Where does no.9 live at?paris ris.

36. What colour does no.3 like?pink=]

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend?mei n kor status.hahs

38. Does no.1 have any pets?got.crayfish,n fish,hahas

39. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?oh PLEASE LAH SEXY +?I WAN VOMIT SIA>i jus love his body cuz of his tattoo.hahas

40. What is no. 10 doing now?sure is eating macdonald.cuz jus chat with her on fone.,hahas




alright.what a quiz lahs.hahas XD

sigh
Thursday, August 28, 2008 10:06 AM


work sucks big times nowadays lahs.
im tired.
over work perhaps?
lack of sleep=x.
sigh.
maybe coming mense le bahs.
ytd,i thought todae would be a better day.
but end up todae was like...
worse?
gosh...
wad's happenin to me ?
completely so absent minded nowadays=x
sorry.

A song that could only once make me smile, can now only make me cry.
Monday, August 25, 2008 11:51 AM



we are the best of the best friends XD.
enjoyed myself today

blog reali soon.sister gonna scold.hhas.
SOOO MUCH!hahas.

tired,
Friday, August 22, 2008 1:32 PM

teacher said im vindictive.
its like,DUH.
because he just pissed me off =x.


slept for half an hour at outlet todae.
its sweet of mdm ck to actually asked me into training rooma nd asked me wad happen to me.
and end up,
she surprised me with the white sand she promised to bring back for me!!
what more,
its in a small bottle.
oh mine.
hahas.
received july's tips.
which is like around...9bucks?
kinda little.cuz i only work 75 hours=x
well,
guess i must have been too tired.
alrights,
im out for a date on mondae
whees~
i want a hug.
who will be the kind soul to give me a hug? =x



ps:ak,dun think too much yahs.lets tok more when we go out together.

gal:im kinda emotionl nowadays.where have u been?

janelle:i miss u lahs!!!hurry sunday,.than can meet=]

ive actually depend on yj alot.i realised it when i was doin bulletin on friendster.hahas XD

boredom.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 10:26 AM


days continue to pass,
stars continue to shine.
why do i have tears in my eyes everyday,
when he was never mine?
thanks to ah bee,
for the talk on life.
and it keeps me going on =].
feeling kind of devastated right now.
dunno what is going on.
still,
life still must go on.
aunty mary,
please look after me from heaven.
please pray that i will be strong to go on in life.
please take care of me.
heal my pain,
heal my hurt.
heal my misery.
heal my sorrow.
heal my heart.
let no one despise me.
let no one hurt me.
let no one cause me pain.
let no one make me cry.
take away my pain.
only u noe me the best,
u see everything im going thru.
u see everything im sufferin from.
u see every hurt that i need to heal.
u see every broken heart i have.
u see me struggling thru the nights.
u see me workin hard,causing injuries to myself.
u see me cryin alone in the dark.
u see me fear.
u see me stand strong.
i know u are always here.
i know u are by my side.
thank u so much,
for guiding me all along.
and for protecting me.
i will carry on.
ps:hey someone,
i miss YOU

upset.
Monday, August 18, 2008 2:35 PM

upset =(
i read her blog,
not long ago.
and i realised,
she actually did blog about us.
and the words written in her blog,
just kept on repeatin itself in my mind.
i get kinda worked up.
kinda upset.
i miss her.
she used to be the only so close fren with me.
and yes,
kinda upset right now.
tears suddenly feel my eyes =(
feeling so...affected,
and its already 5:40am,
yet im still awake,
not being able to sleep.
i dunno,
what actually happen to us.
did i do something wrong?
what really happen between us?
will you give an answer to my doubts? ='(


i miss sec 2 n sec 3.
we were reali close.
rmb when u first called me,
and tell me he broke up with u.
i even cried together with u when u cry.
and yes,
things jus kept on going between us.
once,we broke frenship.
and i cried.
so many memories together.
i miss u kuku.

we used to go out together.
used to play together.
used to be so close.
used to share problems.
used to stand by each other.
used to drink together.
used to hug each other n cry.
used to be lame at tm.
used to comfort each other.
used to hug each other n cry.
used to tell each other, 'imissu'.
used to go beach together.
used to sing together.
used to take neoprints together.
u know who are u
wish u luck for nlevel.
study hard okie?
i dun wan to see u retain again.
my long lost fren,
i miss u.
=(=(=(=(=(=(=(

phews.
11:53 AM



gonna upload a photo every time i blog =).
this week,
guess i'll be so pack with work.
tues to sat - night shift 5-1130.
arghs,
maybe work to keep myself busy bahs.
had a fun day todae.
though i woke up quite late.330 i guess?
derek foo call woke me up =x.
met girl at ard 6?=]
went bugis n i watch the show 12 lotus.
oh wells,
its kinda sad but with no ending at all.
i stil prefer 881 :)
shop around bugis just for one pathetic thing.
hahas manage to buy it in e end=)
reached home,
than went to eat with my sister.
we chatted about alot of things.
begging her to bring me out with ah jian n her colleague to sentosa.hahas.
lalalas~

not gonna think so much.
kinda envy people on the street,
with their boyfriend,
so sweet and loving.
nvmx,
i shall wait for mine to come one day=]

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到 你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念 你走以后
离开 难道真的是解脱
难道 真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手 .

pain.
Saturday, August 16, 2008 11:39 AM

even if loving you was a risk i'll have to take,
i'll live with that.
even if loving you was like causing myself to be a prisoner,
i'll stay in the cell forever and never come out.
even if loving you end up with never in return,
i'll be able to bear the consequences.

so tell me baby,
how long do i have to wait?
till u're back into my arm once again.
im bleeding in love once more.
will someone tell me,
never to cry for him anymore?
he'll never be the guy who can kiss me goodnight anymore.
he'll never be the one who i can hear him say e word 'forever'.
he'll never be the one to fetch me home from work.
he'll never be the one who i fed ice cream to.
he'll never be the one i can turn to.
he'll never be the one for me to hug.
he'll never be the one.
he'll never be the guy.
he'll never be mine.

i just asked for one more night,
to be able to stay by your side.
i dun have the courage to admit,
to realise tt u're actually gone.
heart aching in pain.
as i slowly see u drifting away.

my heart is breakin up into pieces,
as i sit here and try to type.
i see no ending to what im doing.
i see no happiness to what im hoping.
im waiting helplessly.
im trying to turn back in time.
trying so hard,
till its gonna kill me soon.



pain within me,
im trying to move on.
its killing in painfully.
im instantly forced to look at everything differently right now.
even if u wouldnt love me in the future,
the biggest mistake in my life,
was to ever let you go.
and the foolishly lie now,
was to tell myself tt u'll return.
the only thin ive regret,
is loving a guy who will never love me.
and forgettin the one who did.
u doesnt intend to catch me,
when i fall from tt smile of yours.
im suffering deep in my heart,
knowing tt ive lost u.
but smiling on the outside,
pretending tt im over u.



to you,
i get an ans to ur post.
i get the ans i wanted to hear.
i know wad u're trying to tell me.
even if its hurting me so much right now,
im sorry for being selfish,
actually thinking of my own,
and never spare a thought for u.
its good when u're actually better off without me.
maybe its time,
i see the truth.
we'll never be frens anymore.
i promise,
i wont disturb u anymore.
promise me,
u will be happier.
and it jus hurt so badly right now

10:13 AM






alright,
my experience to the hospital.
i look as though im so going to be dead lahs.
its rather painful .
and i saw the xray.hahas.
so cool and painful.

well,
bad mood today.
maybe cause pass few days have been going thru alot bahs.
but just tt nobody know only.
have been rather tired.
sigh.


what am i thinking about?
why am i emo-ing like hell here?
im on hiatus.
feeling so painful.

Thursday, August 14, 2008 1:02 PM

promise,
swear,
promise,
swear,
promise,
swear.
wo da yin ni!

gonna be hard on me this 2mths,
sigh =x.
thanks girl for supportin me,
and asked me never to give up.
thanks for tellin me tt action speak louder than words.
its only the 3 daes,
and i must still persevere on.
even if i the ending turns out to be i failed,
or im being ignored n hurt,
its okay.
at least i know i tried!=]
i'll never know till i try right?
GO,GO,GO banana! XD


ps:even water droplet does know how to run to finish e task he need to accomplished ya? =)

there were tears on our faces.
12:31 PM


let time heal the pain

joanna yong,you have to be strong

im soooooooo happy!
he finally replied my msg after this long two days.
i was still thinkin to myself tt i wouldnt be able to befriend him again.
but i MUST have e determination,
and i MUST presevere for this frenship i died hard for !
joanna yong, JIA YOU !XD

phew,
finish watching romantic princess ytd,
its so nice lahs.
but than the ending hor,
alamak.
never elaborate more de. TSKTSK!
watched 1litres of tears just now,
and im like controlling my tears.
i must learn to be as strong as that girl,
even though she's sufferin from illness and im not =]

learn to be happier,
learn to grow up.
life still so long lahs!
no matter how stress,
how hurt,
how depressed,
i still must be strong.=)
because i have many ppl who care n love me.
and i love myself,=)
(ppl might be surprised hearing tt i sae i love myself).
but now,ive learnt to cherished.
learn to love myself=]
tml im going for scoop
kinda scare,
i cried to mum n sae tt i doesnt wan to go.
but oh well,
i must..have been delayin so long,
cant possibly delay some more.
so im strong.
after it,
im gonna eat like a fat pig lahs!!!=]
wish me luck,ppl.

aunty mary,
ive dreamt of u n has been thinkin of u nowadays.
i noe u love me,
n i noe u will look after me.
thank u for always saving me from harm.
i miss u ah yi=)

ps:zhihao,u're really closed with sinyi.
so u might as well be better off steading with her. *winks.

GIRLS FACT-->
When a girl is mean to you after a break-up
she wants you back but she is too
scared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever!
when you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back
and smile
When a girl bumps into your arm,
while walking with you
she wants
you to hold her hand
When she wants a hug
she will just stand there
When u break a girls heart
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later
When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind..
When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply,,
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine
When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games
When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a girl says she can't live
without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future
When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Guy Facts--->
When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you
When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong
When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a few minutes
he means it
When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do
When your laying your head on a guy's chest,
he has the world
When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,
he is in love
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done
When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else.

agreed to it? =]

why did u have to let me go?
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 9:58 AM

both of us have move on.
with hearts crying,
memories flashin back,
and moving on with a smile,or heart ache.

to you;
i get bothered when i think of u.
maybe too used to ur presence,
i know one dae u will free me,
and let me go.
i know u are always here for me,
sumtimes i wanna cry on ur shoulder.
to tell u how i feel.
but i just cant.
i dunno how to tell you,
maybe one dae u will leave my side,
and see ur little girl grow up to be independent.
indeed,
4yrs of frenship,
u never failed to stand by me,
but im sorry i choose to close the door to allow u into my heart.
u see me grow,
indeed..
from how innocent i was,
to how naughty i can get to.
u've seen me cry,
heart break,
angry,
crazy,
depressed,
hurt,
stress,
smile,
foolish.
thank you.
maybe u might feel used,
but u are not.
i can assured u tt.
i wanna turn to u and cry so badly now.
but i jus dunno how to face u.
maybe because i wan u to see the strong me,
so if ever one day,
u want to leave,
u will not she bu de.
and u will fang xin go bahs =]
thank you,
from the bottom of my sincere heart.


to someone
i know u will read my blog.
but we dun contact.
i know u still care for me,
even though its been so long since we broke up.
its been more than half a yr since u let me go.
i know i once asked u,
if u dun like me anymore,
will u still dote on me,
u sae no.
u doted on me because u love me.
i know u hate me now,
dare not get close to me anymore.
because u scare to get hurt again.
maybe because of wad i have done last time,
u will never forgive me.
i asked u before,
will u ever like me back after we break,
u said maybe.
well,
im waiting.
i wan to like u,
but i scare u will never like me back anymore.
because of all e hurts ive given u.
but im willing to make ammendments to it.
i dare not contact u,
afraid tt u will be scare getting close to me agin,
afraid tt i will hurt u.
sorry,
i know u know who u are.
if u know,
contact me.
because ive been waiting so long for u to contact me again.
i do read ur blog sumtimes,
do see how u're happier in life without me now.
and readin back on the past post,
gets me missing the past so much.
sorry,
but somehow a part of me find it so hard to let go.
will we be able to tok abt us again?
ive been always saying sorry to u,
but seriously,
i do mean it.
im awaiting.
pls,
forgive me.
i guess,
our meeting were too early.
and i was jus some playful girl out there wantin to flirt last time.
if we had met later on,
i guess,
everything wouldnt turn out this way.
as ive already learn to cherish,love,and to be faithful in love.

ps: time drawing nearer,
will i be able to pull thru?
suddenly emo like hell todae,
i hope tml will be a better day for me.
im sorry for all ive done in e past,
my dramatic past,
fucked up attitude,
everything...
sorry to everyone,
who had been deeply hurt by me before,
i was just too immature at that point of time.
ive lost so many ppl because of wad ive did.
i hope u would be able to see me change n return as a fren =x


you will never contact me,
because u dun wan to dwell back on the past,
maybe im just dreamin on.
im jus waiting on false hope.

tell me where it hurts now.
Monday, August 11, 2008 12:15 PM

read the post before this,
its specially written for janelle tan =]

ALICIA
alicia meimei say that i sound happier in my blog?
is it true?
well,i guess i did =]
life's not as torturing as how it used to be.
life's happier.
i miss pot.
my adorable meimei,
just to tell u,
u are the last person that i dote so much on,
i used to promise u tt u'll be e only meimei i dote on so much,
well i guess i did keep tt promise? *winks.

KATHERINE
talked to weiwei about katherine.
well,baby,
i hope u know tt i miss u.
seeing u gettin me off ur featured fren,
hurt me more than anything.
but u have ur fren,
this frenship still go on,
its just tt we are no longer close =]

GERMAINE
girl,you're my dearest,
just because i blog about janelle,
doesnt mean tt u are forgotten XD
we;ve been thru much.
11yrs,
and i believe,
last half a yr,
was indeed a torture.
i put in so much effort to let go,
even though the memories are v vivid,
but its still the past,
i believe now im happier =]
just waiting for u,
to mature.
to be independent.
although i know i nag alot,
but next time when u think back,
u'll find my naggin worthwhile =]
(blame god for me havin close frens like janelle,yinjie and cheryl,
they are NAGGERS with lots of life sense =] )
we still got long long long long way.
u know it veri well right?
i am always standing behind u.

AK
darling,u might not read my blog,
but rather surprise to see a post for u ya?
well,
suddenly we are like...QUITE close now? =]
im owax there to help u for ANYTHING~
im serious,
we'll go teoheng together.
we'll talk abt ur stuff n mine=]
we'll msg with emotions n lameness.
i dunno if ur stuff IS confidential anot,
so we'll save it to tok in msg instead =)
just know tt,
i care for u still =]

YINJIE
we're always close for a period of time,
till we fight n things starts from anew again.
thanks for standing by me.
ur post is short,
because i rather keep those words in my heart =]

DAPH & ALY
no more both of u.
just to see the two of u ending in an eye wink.
sad though but,
one dae still will end.
glad tt u two remain as frens.
even though a part will still stay.
move on happily,
and though ssa,
never gonna see u anymore,
its kinda sad.
afterall,
been seeing u for 3 yrs lahs.
suddenly everythin jus change.
but i believe,
my sister suffer more.
hopefully ah jian treat my sister good,
if not i'll kill him.
haas.
ah siang
this might get a little emo,
and depressing.
this is goodbye to us this time.
i dun like u anymore,
but memories stays.
sorry for not being there when u need me.
i promise u i'll find a good guy.
promise u i will be happy still.
i know u tried ur best in everything,
to show me all tt u can,
to give me all that u have.
there's no more me n u.
dun sae u still love me,
if all this are just lies.
description?
HURT.
PAIN.
SAD.
even though ur going is painful,
i wont ask u to stay.
because we will never be like how we used to be anymore.
i thought we had so much time,
but time wait for no man.
we both decided to end it,
be it in tears,smile or any other thing,
memories will be brought along.
but boy,
not for me.
i'll dump OUR memories behind,
and just moved on without u.
life's gonna be tough ,
but i believe i can.
give me some time.
sometime wanna asked u,
what exactly happen to us?
how on earth did we end up like this?
but i guess,
its just because of the two of us.
swearing tt i'll nvr mention abt US anymore,
we'll both go our own way from now on.
im trying not to think,
trying not to reminisce.
i dun wanna go on anymore.
cuz memories flashing back,
is indeed painful.
damn it,
i swear its gonna be the last time im crying for u.
goodbye love.
i'll get better in time.

MONKEY
you were never mine.
i've never fallen in love with u.
perhaps u are just someone who i 'rush in' to grab?
nahs,
im not as upset as u think i would be.
im just expecting too much from u.
kinda hate u for how u are treating me.
they sae u like me.
but u see,
i dun want u.
even though i see u EVERYDAY.
i just want to have a clear cut.
we are frens.
from wad u sae,
we are just FRENs.
u;re jus my imagination.
used to thought,
it'll be fun with ur presence around.
but im gonna stop all this,
before i fall in love.
before im hurt by u.
u are cute.
u're nice.
but,
NOT FOR ME.


phew,
let time heal the pain.
kinda havin a 'sour' heart now.
but tml will be better =]

byebye bloggy.
thanks for allowing me to crap here.
hees.

ps:we ended it just like this.
shuld it be tears or smile?
goodbye were said,
wad should be our emotions? =x

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thank u so much
11:25 AM


thanks for assuring me that we will keep on going.
thanks for assuring me that this friendship is real.
thanks for assuring me that we do have each other by our side.
thanks for standing by me.
even with all those discouraging words u said,
with those stupid little quarrels we had,
with those grudges we bear on each other,
with thousand and one nonsense we can crap about,
with millions and billons of gossip we can have,
with countless days of no contacts,
whatever it is,
we are still sisters.
sister that will keep on going,
sisters that never leave each other.
we used to be a group,
with different cliques.
(some names of ppl we used to hang out with)
pri 6-with rachel,germaine,yuting,taby.cherie,sharon.
sec 1-rachel,taby,yvonne,yuting
sec2-wendy,aida,vanjill,haseenah
and yes,a period of time,
(half a yr i guess? :] )
we've drifted apart,
from all that everyone can see,
we drifted.
till the night out to tampines mart to eat after sac idol,
memories just flash back.
and we were so happy back then.
suddenly,
we were close as how we used to be before.
than,
sec 3-tingwen,xiner,pris came into our life.
sec 4-pris,ah bee,germaine,larve
now-one by one left us.
two most precious frens,
tingwen and pris.
they've left.
and never expect to be the two of us again,
back to square one =].
we've been thru indeed,indeed,indeed ALOT =]
many times,
we always say to go,
countless times of goodbye in our mind.
somehow,
we are back to US.
thanks for realli being a part of me.
i know,
both of us have a FUCK UP attitude.
both of us are veri stubborn.
but,
u owax win lahs. XD
hahas.
always,
i always thought tat im not worthy to be ur friend.
different background,
different dreams,
different life,
different world.
but still,
thank you for letting me in and be a part of u.
i know u do miss the past,
when we are really close.
when i just dote u more than anyone else.
I promise you,
I'm always there,
When your heart is filled with sorrow,
And despair,
I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand .
you've pulled me thru,
you've make me stronger.
and even if we're gonna fight tml,
we're gonna leave each other one day,
just rmb that this post is specially written for u.
remember that,
JOANNA YONG DUN NEED A MAN,
U MEAN MORE THAN LOVE TO ME =]


ps:u may feel that i dun tell u any problem,
but truth is,
i tell u more things than ive ever told anyone.
and when i tell u things,
i realli sae it from the bottom of my heart=]

sorry for the disappointment,
those drama,
those wild imagination.


i thought i've lost my way,but u gave me the strength to carry on =]

sae tt u love me.
Saturday, August 9, 2008 11:34 PM

im exhausted!
he called me todae and wake me up from my beauty sleep.
but still,
its okay=]

im sorry if i break ur heart by telling u tt i dun like u.
but,my heart oso somehow feel kind of broken now.
i learn to just work and focus on work,
not bringing other personal thing into work time.

going hospital this fridae,
im veri scare.
realli felt like shouting,
'I DUN WANT TO GO'.

IMAGINE HAVING TO TAKE OFF MY CLOTHES COMPLETELY AND CHANGE TO THEIR HOSPITAL UNIFORM,
FOLLOWED BY TAKING INJECTION,
AND COMPLETELY DUNNO WHAT THEY DO TO ME ETC..
THAN MAYBE WAKE UP GOT MY RESULTS?
OMG!!!
nowadays im having a v bad stomach ache.
and lost of appetite again.
gosh =x


actually,
u're still on my mind.
ive never failed to at least think of u once everyday.
sometimes,
wondering how have u been doing?

ps:i miss u.

i'll never say goodbye.
Friday, August 8, 2008 11:40 AM


me and one of the breeks colleague.hahas





gal and me =]


thomas and me!



sarah's birthdae and vch concert=]

i love ernest yong la!


i saw a realli nice sun sey outside my house,so i took the pic=]





we are just as retarded as last time.

and yes,self obsession.

i love blue rose,esp when its u who give me=].

thomas and me,taken after work.



i love myself=]

my new schedule book.hahas my little diary.

he gave it to me when he return from malaysia.
girl bought this for me on her trip to thailand.
we both have one=]
ps:i think it looks like germaine tan la.hahas.


the flower bloom till so nice=]
my watermelon lollipop from my dearest janelle tan!!



roses are love.


fresh bulggogi rockx=]

here to blog now. =]
firstly,
wanted to sae,
derek foo.
dun think that i still like u.
because im long over you.
after one week of tearing for u,
im over u.
i think its been a month.=]
so dun be too thick skin.
i have to admit sth,
im terribly hurt.
but its just that i dun have the courage to say.
who can i tell my problems to?
im stuck in the middle of the road =x
you make me feel the pain.
you make me feel the ache.
you make me feel demolished,
you turn me upside down.
why cant u just be who i hope to find?
why can u just be who u used to be?
why must you become like tt?
why must u owax scold me n hurt me so bad?
you go,
and expect me to ask u to stay.
evern though i noe this,
are realli goodbye,
but i rather u go.
simply because things has turn out to be,
so bad till we cant even turn back time anymore.
i choose to let go.
though i will miss u.
but still,
its better to end it now than later.
so goodbye love,
i can only sae,
u hurt me too bad this time.
i think monkey is loved.
isnt it adorable? XD
but sadly,
just not meant to be mine.
read my sister's blog,
it says that blue rose symbolize impossible.
i shouldnt have asked for it in the first place.
damn it
i've got it wrong.
im fine recently.
but sum nights,
i'll be struggling to pull thru.
nowadays after work,
dunno why,
just have the fear of going home.
on the way to work,and back home,
ive been emo-in like hell lahs.
hearing depressing song,
and staring up in the sky.
ive been workin realli hard nowadays.
have been thinking..
i regretted.
when aunty mary n ah ma is still on earth,
didnt give them some of my hard earn money.
and now,
im deeply missing them =x.
i treat ah ma,mummy n ernest to watch money not enough 2.
i save the money for so many days.
didnt bring money to work,
owax buy a few sticks of nicotine from my sister..
and managed to save,=]
well,
just now,
i was thinking..
im here workin so hard,
and they are enjoying their movie.
but still,
its all of worth=].
wanna lesser my mum's burden.
for my holidae,
i'll postpone it to when ive clear my debts.
and had some savings.
maybe one or two yrs time?
anw,taiwan or bangkok will never close down ya?=]
i had so many things to say,
but staring at the computer screen,
makes my mind went totally blank.
changes ,changes & more changes to come.
people say,
you can never stop learning.
while to me,
i realised that ppl can never stop changing.
days passes by realli fast.
and im glad ive moved on.
no longer hanging on the cliff.
even though,
i feel the pain.
but i just dunno how to voice out,
at least i know tt im still coping it veri well,
so friends,
no worries for me.
im fine=].
blame myself for my fuck up attitude in the past,
blame myself for loving yet dare not voice out.
who would want to keep on failing in life?
i believed life is still long,
and colourful=]
no more melancholy,
no more sadness,
no more blue-ness in my life.
i wan rainbows=]
phew;
im actually thinking.
am i fallng in love with anyone?
or maybe i should just stay like this,
anw,
we are just outlet couples.
and u are just my 'outlet boyfriend'.
u're the eye candy tt melt my heart n eyes XD.
realised that out here in this world,
there's no such thing as fairy tale anymore.
ive been living in denial.
thinking tt prince charmin actually exist.
but to think of it,
no one is perfect.
and i cant owax wan things my way.
i'll just let you fly away.
and continuous waiting if u're return.
i love myself,
i love my family.
i love my friends.
i love my life now. XD
janelle,germaine,yinjie,cheryl- thanks for being such a wondeful fren.
even though we don't contact every single day.
even though i dun see janelle every day,
even though only tok to cheryl in school,
even though everydae fight with yinjie,
even though seldom sms germaine now,
but stilll,
glad we are in a stable friendship.
friends are important.
and owax remember,
even if others talk bad things about u,
u must NVR talk bad things about urself =]

LOVE IS IN THE AIR.
(well,let me dream on :] )

blue rose.
Thursday, August 7, 2008 10:31 AM

blue rose may stands for sadness,
but its the sweetest thing anyone can get from a colleague XD.

anw,
*we are just a pair of couple for others to tease =x.
and we are nth more than 'outlet couple'.
but still,
thanks for the rose =].

took many photos,
will be uploaded tml =)

the world came crushing down.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008 6:24 AM

my world came crushin down ever since u've left.
i miss you.
sigh.

i choose to let u go.
Saturday, August 2, 2008 11:58 PM



thomas, and me XD.


janelle came to my house and stay for the veri first time in this 7 yrs.
went to work yesterdae,
and omg !
full house,
so busy,
until i burn my two finger =[
but nice of thomas,
and anton to help me with alpha station =].

i dunno what else can i say,
but i can say.
i think im out of love.
nah,not exactly.
but well,
i think monkey is reali cute.
but we'll put an end to it.
yupp.
sad but,
goodbye monkey.

i promise u,
the next time round,
when i saw u ever again.
i will no longer like you.
simply because,
i cant like you.

=x
Friday, August 1, 2008 11:36 PM

going work later.
argh.
dun wanna see him lahs.
sigh.


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