.the sweetest love of all.

goodbye;my fren=]

Friday, August 31, 2007 9:52 AM

this is gonna be the time.when im gonna sae goodbye.as in reali goodbye.i guess memories are meant to be kept deep in my heart.

i dun think tt i should hold on to the both of u.since u two alreadi go on with life without me.no matter how much i reali do miss u,im nt going to sae.i will just keep it in my heart.

jewel-u use to mean everythin to me.bt i dun blame u for choosing to end this friendship.at least now i tink tt ure much more happier with life.no body would hurt u like how joanna yong did.i'll nvr forget those times when we were real close.we use to smile together.and even cry together.u use to sae..when dere's onli the two of use out there,we would be extremely close.we dun quarrel.but i guess its bcuz of *ahem's appearin in our life,we've changes.i miss those time when u're back with mr rain.sigh...those times is so enjoyable.i dote on u alot.we dun reali quarrel.sigh... i will miss those times when we go clarke quay together.sit boat together,watch movie together, talk about our own problems.i noe u wont read this entry. but i reali wish to sae tt i am truely sorri.i didnt expect things to turn out this wae.u are tired.i noe..but im changin.i wont ask you to return back.but i'll always wait on ur return;silently.nobody will noe how it hurts...sigh.i dun care who hurt me in life.but this time,its u.the person i least expect.like wad u always sae,'expect the unexpected'.i tink god is jus playin a fool with me.i have to play on.i noe.but i..sigh reali hard.i tried to forget u two...why is this hurtin me so badly?!?!?!ive been controllin my tears.i didnt cry.but deep down im missin u two reali badly.esp u.i miss hearin u shout my name'BU-NA-NA;Jo-LION and JO!'...ure the one i will nvr forget.the one hu promise me tt we will graduated together.the one who sae tt u will live in a hse urself and have a cupboard all filled with different type of cigarette.if i wan any,i can jus take.ure the one who mean so much.i stil dote alot on u.i stil care.though nobody would mention u infront of me bcuz dey dun wan me to be sad..but i was hopin i noe wad is goin on in ur life.we stil have yet to cut our hair together.yet to go out together.to buy clothes.im reali sorry for wad ive done.but why muz u leave me jus like this?i reali miss u .how i wish i had a chance to speak up.but u left me here.with everythin unsaid=x

10yrs best fren-gal,i see u grow from inmatured to a matured gal.:i dunno abt u but i noe that life hasnt been good for me without yew in my life.rite now im at my weakest time n when i needed yew most,u are not by my side,supportin me or even to pull me thru life.i dun blame yew for that cause eveything is all my fault.im the one that cause yew to have decided not to get close to me anymore..i dun blame yew at all.but all i wanna sae is that,can yew stop hurtin urself?it hurts me more.u cant solve ur problems by hurtin urself.cux the pain will be more den what u have expected.i can be dere for u wenever u nid me,though im no longer ur close frens anymore,but owax remember that i am owax thinkin of yew.n whatever you promise me,promise that u will alrights?we still haven go dxo together.u owe me a dance.we still promise each other to be room mates next time.gal,WHY MUZ U MAKE ME FEEL AS THOUGH U ARE MAKIN USE OF THIS FRENSHIP?JEWEL'S LEAVIN IS ENOUGH FOR ME,BUT WHY MUZ U ALSO GO WITH HER?i miss u.tellin me all ur problems...how have u been?im curious..i hope lif'es goin on well for u.muz learn to cherish before everythin is gone.

no words can describe how much im missing u two..im wae too hurt till i even forget how to cry.oh mine,this is so ridiculous.life shouldnt been like this for me.i hope u two will reali take care of urself.n at anytime,im still a phone call away.both of u are so heartless to walk off in front of me.both of u are so cruel..have u forgotten how we use to laugh together?how we use to hug each other?how we use to enjoy in ktv?singing songs and cryin our hearts out.how we use to cry together?how we use to share our problems.

u hurt me wae too much,that i even forget how to start crying=x.

i wll not cry,even though im deeply hurt.i dun wanna breakdown in front of anyone.i'l always remember you two.

GERM N JAN,HOW HAVE U BEEN?
IM MISSING YOU.
I HOPE U'RE MISSING ME TOO.

Sometimes people come into your life
Like they're meant to be
And suddenly you've found someone
Who sees the world like you see

And you laugh like crazy
At all the crazy things
That no one thinks are funny but you
That's when I knew
That I had a friend so true

If my world were crumbling down
You are the one I'd want around
Cause through everything you've shown me that
You were the one who had my back

Remember the laughs
Then add up the dreams
And take it to the nth degree
We'll be friends forever
Cause you'll be forever in my heart
That's where best friends are

There will always be hard times
I'm glad I've got you to see me through
And I will never forget your smile
I just have to say thank you

For being there always
Even the darkest days
Especially when you didn't have to
That's when I knew
I had a friend in you

So if your world should fall apart
Call me I'll run to where you are
I only hope that I can be
Half of the friend you've been to me

Where would I be
Without you by my side loving me
Anyone can see that we're the real thing
No matter what and always
We're best friends forever

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you.

it ends with a goodbye.

i tried to let go.

9:14 AM

todae i went to school...dey didnt cum to school... and also,first thin i saw rachel wong.hahas she so cute ar..she super funny also.haha den,percussion band rox!dey impress me alot.haha i steal a balloon for yeoyeo...den i saw ANGELA!!!!haha felicia also cum back to school....many ex seniors la.oh well...
after school xiner called me and ask me out for lunch.is like wad the hell ,she nobody ask her out den ask me out de..hahas...but its okay la..yupp...den i cancel the appointment with alicia for awhile.haha...i went out with ah yeo...we went jazmin's hse together.so long never see her alreadi.and she keep saein tt i like xiner la.is like..hello!!!its been so long since we break.and she n joelle so lovely together.and i tink its best to stay as frens=]
oh well...than xiner 'water' my two sticks of cigarette!she dun wan me smoke den take my whole pack..but she return me in the end.hahas...den at jaz's hse...we eat n watch show together..later on xiner fall asleep..i and jaz see fortune..the fortune sae my love life hor....veri unstable..which is like SO TRUE,hahas...den xiner woke up..wth!she took video of me..its so...ugly la.gosh..hmmm den after tt leave jaz hse le.walk to tm together with xiner..she keep on using the balloon and hit me.pain la can..than we tok on the wae.she promise to go out with me next week..hope she reli mean it ba.hmmm den..haha went to mac but fries.den wait with her at the taxi stand...she goin to joelle's hse le..so envy dem lo.hmmm den alicia n alex appear.after tt,i saw RENEE CHOO.so i quickly grab xiner's hand.den after tt when she goin in cab.i ask her to let me hug her.jus to make renee jealous la.haha.hmmm den she ask if i wanna go in the cab with her to.but i sae its okay...den she left le.
after tt go find renee awhile..sigh she changed..ive intended to forget her totally..those memories so vivid.i stil had to let go ma.she changed.after tt went to airport with pot n alex..dey look like couples.haha but den hmmm....we did enjoyed ourselves alot..den yj cum...wth she spoil my mood she show me pic of memories la..sigh dun wanna see..but tear's around the corner of my eyes..but i didnt cty .i jus caant cry out.sum how it hurts..i tink tt's for all for todae.haha

pot n i=]

alex n pot.haha dey look like couple.

smile=]

rabbit ar.

she look like...jay chou playin..haha no la.when he's actin secret=]

the dog actually wan LC xiner de.haha

my zi lian dearest=]

haha she changed alot

memories i dwel back.jaz,me n kat's hand print=]

jaz is tryin to seduce xiner.haha.

i tink they two look compatible=]

so long since we last took photos together=]

jaz,me n xinerrrr!!!!=]]]]]

she's playin with jaz dog...

sudden shots.haha

xiner n the dog=]]]

it was a hard time for me to struggle.but i'll still go on=]

8:01 AM

alright im here to blog once more...haha yesterdae i went for study night...hahas...so fun lah..at least i noe who is my true frens from this=]i shall start here den..
thursdae-300807 i went school,..i told kel,gera about my problem..sigh den i go for counselling... i have to rush here n there.haha.den went counsellin. i told the counsellor alot of thin..i finally can cry out le..but den hor..she is some sort of stranger to me so i control myself..hahas den went down for study night.my classmate went to queue for donut factory,haha...den they bring to sch..study night is reali fun..kelly's a veri nice person.at least she dun treat me like how others do...KEL,THANKS LOTS!!!=]some pictures of wad hapen in sch ytd.hahas...and im sorri for hurtin u,my laogong...dun mean to disappoint u de...sorri i noe u do care=]

all this are my crazy classmates.and i love dem plenty!=]

a heart tt has been terribly broken into pieces.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007 7:23 AM

i dunno how im feelin rite now...todae i saw her,n ahem..and i jus think back of the past...sigh..but it has happened so long ago...no matter how much i wish time could turn back,i noe i cant...and todae yutin mention about the past....oh no...everythin seems to be passin by so fast..i had no chance to sae my feelings out.would sumone please give me a way out in life?i dunno wad i truely wan in life..oh my god!this is gettin no where!!!!i tink god mus be playin a fool with me.hes makin me turn round n round this world.searchin deep down in my heart for what i truely wan...but this game is no longer easy to play.im tired!!!!this is so torturing.i cant deny how im feelin towards u.i hate the feelin of havin to keep everythin to myself.would sumone jus try openin my sealed heart?i think i'll jus have to wait... and pretend as though im happi.im a okie gal.i jus have to fake a smile out and act thought everythin's goin fine for me.
i dun wanna noe tt ure leavin me.i dun wanna see how u're gonna turn ur back against me n walk out of my life.losin u for once is painful enough.please give me a second chance to show u how much i love u.u left me here with so many things tt ive yet to said.i wanna love u forever.i wanna be the one u'll run to when u need sumone.the one u promise to be with forever.but now tt u've alread left my side..dere's nth i can do.noein tt u will nvr return back.but im still hopelessly waitin..for ur return.i noe i have to let u go.i will..but i need sum time.why muz u end everythin when my feelin are still maintainin for u?why muz u leave with a broken vow?when is all those times when u promise tt u'll be mine?i have to force myself to let u go.i have to.in order for u to be happi.no point hangin on to u.sigh.this entry is just written out of how im feelin.but its nt specially written for anyone.its jus a wae of expressin how i use to be feelin.and i'll nvr gonna love again-/

and i do miss you badly-/ i need u to give me a hug and tell me tt u're missin me too=x

hey gal u out there,im missing u badly too!=]
ps:this entry is Not for her=]

wad a disaster.

5:42 AM

i went for band todae... and i kanna interviewed. oh no.i was so paisehx.i saw her todae...i super scare to look at her.bcuz of her ive neglected pot..sigh..todae get back bio paper..congrats me cuz i pass=].i saw kat's hand.she cut herselve.sigh i see her,veri sad cuz i feel tt ive failed bein a fren.u noe?hmmm oh well...xiner promised me to go out on sept holidae!!!haha...yeah im so happi. BUT DEN,she hit me todae...den she ask if im attached i sae no...broke up le.she sae who brk with who.i sae i brk with him..den i sae ever since she broke up with me,it me who dump ppl...so she's the last to dump me!wth.haha but ya,xiner's veri cute too...
my entertainer break down todae.i was there at the scene.my heart jus suddenly ache when she break down.and i hate people who bully my fren.esp those who mean alot to me.alright.wtf.

this is wad happened in band todae...haha...its so memorable..

and pot,im sorri for hurtin u.its nt t ive forgotten u when i see her.but is jus tt...it reminded me of th past somehow..and to me,she's still veri cute.haha u have ur clara...

sae goodbye.

Saturday, August 25, 2007 2:27 AM

i just woke up..i feel veri lonely suddenly.i hate the feelin of being alone.i hate the feelin of havin nobody by my side.i dunno why but im feelin this wae...sth muz have been veri long..workin out so wrong...will sumone tell me wad is it?feelin as though everybody have left my side.i wanted to go church todae..bu i woke up late...but deep down i reali wanna go.at leat if i go church,im able to run into sumone's arm...hide in ther.i wish it would last forever actuali...so i dun have to face with anythin..i woke up todae mornin,my sister scolded me..i was rather dishearten..she confiscated my radio n disc.i was like...wth la..todae nobody ask me out...i didnt ans renee's call cuz i was still sleepin...n it ended up tt it was too late when i read her msg cuz she alreadi went it...i viewed medaline's profile ytd..i miss her alot suddenly.hopin she would be here to make me smile.cuz she's owax e one makin me laugh when i am not happi....

HAPPI 6MTHS TO KAT N ADELINE~!!!im sorri kat if i make u feel as though i dun wish to tell u any more of my problems..i dun wan u to tink tt im actuali attracting any attention.yupp...after losing u once,i fear losing u again le...glad tt we are back together as frens=]

i and janelle,germ n pris have drifted so far apart..and i just miss those times we shared together.i reali do.it must have been the cause of my attitude resultin in all this thing...and wad i miss most is those time i watch fireworks with janelle.

i said before.if i were to die,the person i cant bear to leave will be 1)janelle 2)germaine 3)katherine 4)alicia 5)oinkoink i dunno why.but perhaps ..they are my closest fren.
jan..jus v important..germ always kanna bullied...kat arx..alwaya kanna hurt by tt adeline..
see also not happi lo me...hmmm alicia stil young.hahas.yj cuz she dote on me ma.if i die,dunno wad will happen to her lo.hmmm wad a dae im havin.will sumone ask me out?!?!?!

ytd joel,yj n zh stay over in my hse..sigh.den zh so weird towards me...i noe his fone spoil..if i gt work,i first thin will buy fone for jan.,yj n zh...but i dun tink i work gt enough money oso..haha!!!!i thank everyone who has been accompanyin throughout this whole week.luckily i lsten to zh n take e first step to msg jan..but den sigh...now i n jan drift alot also....i scare me n zh wil end up nt in good terms also lei...sigh..why do one fren return yet the others have to leave?this is such a tormenting thing.nvmx i shall jus keep it all to myself.alright i tink tts for it.nth much le..so bored.n stupid joel bought me a pajamas.wtf??hahas...

AND IM MISSING U PLENTY=]
memories we shared together;
nvr will it be forgotten.=]

and i love my girlfren lots!

Friday, August 24, 2007 11:59 AM

nows 3++am in the morning.im feeling rather disheartened.just being bored so decided to post an entries.i stayed home the entire dae todae.hahas..
and i love my girlfriends lots!

my love for you will always flow like a river_*

5:41 AM

i didnt attend school for a week.i guess i need some break for myself in life.i dun wanna think about it.ive been stress up enough.i just cant bring myself to face all those reality.im afraid.i just dun have any courage.
i guess now i can onli sae tt me n u are over.u have changed.and no longer the person i first noe.ure my first love.the one i find it so hard to let go.but i dun wan my life to be destroyed because of u.both of us have to move on in life.
its hard to bid goodbye.especially to someone who have left so much footprints in my heart.

This goes out to someone that was Once the most important person in my life I didn’t realize it at the time I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don’t really expect you to either It’s just... I don’t even know Just listen… You’re the one that I want, the one that I need The one that I gotta have just to succeed When I first saw you, I knew it was real I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel That wasn’t me; let me show you the way I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today I remember when I first looked into your eyes It was like God was there, heaven in the skies I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt But I didn’t know I made everything worse You told me we were crazy in love But you didn’t care when push came to shove If you loved me as much as you said you did Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me I loved you with my heart, really and truly I guess you forgot about the times that we shared When I would run my fingers through your hair Late nights, just holding you in my arms I don’t know how I could do you so wrong I really wanna show you I really need to hold you I really wanna know you like no one could else know you You’re number one, always in my heart And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart Chorus I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you ‘cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you You were my everything And I really miss you [2x] I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand The thought of that just shatters my heart It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart At times we was off I was scared to show you Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you Without you, everything seems strange Your name is forever planted in my brain Damn it, I’m insane, Take away the pain Take away the hurt Baby, we can make it work What about when you Looked into my eyes Told me you loved me As you would hugged me I guess everything you said was a lie I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes Now I’m not even a thought in your mind I can see clearly, my love is not blind Chorus [Talking] I just wish everything could have turned out differently I had a special feeling about you I thought maybe you did too You would understand, but… No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart You’ll always be my baby Our first day, it seemed so magical I remember all the time that I had with you Remember when you first came to my house? You looked like an angel wearing that blouse We hit it off, I knew it was real But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care Remember the times? Remember when we kissed? I didn’t think you would ever do me like this I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess You said you were my best friend, was that a lie? Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying Chorus [Talking] And I do miss you I just thought we were meant to be I guess now, we’ll never know The only thing I want is for you to be happy Whether it be with me, or without me I just want you to be happy