everything has to go on,
no matter what happens.
and yes,
i still have to be strong.
ive been there done that.
so i supposed i should have understand what im goin thru in 2days time,
is a must.
ive gone thru the pain of losing 3closest bestie to me,
and it has already passed one year.
i should have been stronger by this time.
because i learnt how to let go and carry on in life.
although the feeling of nvr gettin him to be around jus sucks,
but i stil need to spread my wings and sore up high,
being independent n not dependin on him is wad i need to start learning now.
everyone has been sayin that time will heal the pain,
but what if im jus hanging there helplessly,
and hopin that u will still come around?
i started counting down from months ago,
than to sep9,
slowly slowly until oct 27,
and till ur birthday,
and well,
finally right now its only 2days left.
this yr indeed pass so fast.
half a yr jus gone by so fast.
maybe right now the sadness i feel in me,
is jus a minor pain.
but after u leave,
every corner i go,
will always have memories of u.
but im trying to tell myself not to let it affect me.
im trying to tell myself tt i should be feeling this way.
im trying to tell myself that i should be strong.
and this is the reason why,
tears have been held back.
every life has one true love snapshot,
the moment i saw u walking out of the door,
and those eye contact we had,
u capture my heart from the veri beginning,
and that very moment,
is freezed.
a scene that i will never forget.
the pain,
ive feeled it.
those lies,
ive heard of it.
those moments,i enjoyed it.
those goodbye u said,
im getting used to it.
even until now,
you leave me hanging on,
knowing that u never intended to catch my fall.
