to you;
you failed because you said u love me,
yet all i feel from u is just a pack of lies.
i cannot bring myself to turn back lesbian because of u again.
dunno is it because u just remind me of renee or wad,
but every single thing you do,
yes i know u are trying realli hard to step into my heart.
but i just cant seems to open it up to you.
i told u before,
i will leave u for someone better when time comes.
yet u still so persistent,
which i dunno why must u be doing all this for me?
sometimes i feel irritated,
sometimes i feel touched,
sometimes i feel hurt.
because u're doin all this for someone who u will never get.
you say you wont chap paikia,
end up you got taiji.
you say you wont lie to me,
end up you confess tt stt is ur ex.
you sae you nvr bluff me,
end up u finally reveal the truth abt sth..
you sae u will go work,
but time after time u bomb them.
you sae u will not mention ur ex,
end up u even dare to put me n her on conference.
every single thing u do,
though it may not hurt me,
but its still sth tt is stuck in my head.
i mean from the start,
i just hurt u sooo much.
as the days pass by,
i hurt u even more..
and im slowly beginning to feel tt,
maybe by hurting u continuously,
and ignoring u..
you will slowly get to see the picture tt i dun wish to lead u on.
my dearest,
you get so jealous over every fren of mine whom u claim to be 'my flings',
perhaps those are ppl i've crush before,
but that doesnt mean that i still have feelings for them.
and by this,
it doesnt show tt u can retreat me this way too.
although it may be only going a month or so,
but i know that times when we two hang out together,
when u fetch me after work everytime,
when you send me to work,
when u take care of me when im having fever,
when u dun have enough sleep,
yet u company me go take passport,
when i go missing and u waited for me for hours outside,
when i throw tantrum at u,
and u uttered not a word.
when i use violent on u by throwin pillow,
you still stupid stupid sit there let me beat.
looking at those pictures we took,
realli realli,
there are some which makes me feel that we are very happy when we are out together.
ive once said,
only someone will make me cry so badly,
and u are there to make me happy.
you wont make me cry,
and i hope u will not.
but my dear,
just dun make urself in so much pain,
if its too painful, let it go and i'll be happy for u.(:
