im losing grip of everything.
everything seems to be falling apart in my life.
im trying to stay as strong as i wished i could be.
but everytime im alone,
all those memories just ponders .
telling myself that everything is just a foul play,
never getting right with it.
because everything is just meant to be,
you have to come and go in my life.
just so stucked right now.
i wish i was who i am before all this ever happen to me.
thanks to my dearest sweetheart for being there for me,
even though she doesnt noe what happens,
she's still there.
and thanks to my dearest ah cheun for spending the night drinking with me.
maybe u sense sth that's not right,
but im glad we somehow had a heart to heart talk.
i promise u i will be strong and not cry at all.
i wished i can put down all that's bothering me.
i wished the nightmare was gone.
i wished i could open up my self,
and just be as happy.
i wished all these pain has never happen to me .
i want to forget everything.
just let me be happy,
let me deserved the happiness i should have.
i wished u never entered my life before.
because right now its causing me tremendous pain.
how i wished when u're back,
i would be able to tell u how much i miss u.
joanna yong,
just be strong,
just be who you are infront of others.
life still goes on.
18 yrs of pain is enough,
time to get a life for yourself.
no matter how painful it is,
just let it go.
time will slowly heal all the pain.
sometimes acting too strong is pointless.
there have to be times when u would break down and cry.
i know ive been there,done that...
but God,
just give me a moment of time when i'll cry in ur presence,
linger and embrace in ur arms.
i know suffering are meant to make someone stronger.
but ,
time to pull me away and make me happy....
please.
you're the reason why this is happenin to my life,
you're the reason i close my heart to everyone.
you're the reason why my life become like this.
you're the reason why im sufferin right now.
you're the reason why im no longer as happy as how i used to be.
you're the reason why this nightmares stays.
but whatever it is,
i still love you.
