to my dearest brother:
we've been spending 13years of kinship together,
and we've been through alot of fights,tears,laughter,joy&sorrow.
i see you grow every single day,month&years.
and as time pass by,
you're slowly growing into a teenager,
more mature and sensible.
13years back,
you came into this world.
and soon after,
i've become a sister to someone younger.
i remember that i was so happy back then.
whenever aunties/uncles carry you,
i would follow behind them.
afraid that they will take you away.
when you were young,
i wished that u would never grow up at all.
i was the one who keep pestering mummy for a younger brother,
but im not the one who took care of you.
ever since u're born,
da-jie has always been the one taking care of u.
i may have fetch u from kindergarten before,
but always end up scolding you for makin me wait so long.
ever since daddy left,
back than u were only 6yrs old.
and that was the yr when i start becomin rebellious.
i didnt care much about you,
i rejected helping you.
i was nvr the one coaching u in ur studies,
and all the credit goes to da-jie.
i know u grow up with no father love & ever since u're born,
mummy started working and u're left home with only da-jie&ah ma.
i wasnt around and ah ma is the one who took care of u for 13 yrs.
wake u up for sch,
pack ur sch bag,
prepare ur breakfast&lunch,
cook for you,
give u pocket money.
even until now,
you nvr failed to come home straight after sch and accompany ahma.
even though u're out with frens,
u nvr failed to reach home by 6pm to bring ahma go downstairs eat.
sometimes when i wan to bring u out,
u will reject me bcuz u're worried ahma is lonely.
ernest,
i know you've been a great grandson.
when u have problems in studies,
u always solve it urself.
when u have problems in sch,
u keep to yourself.
when u're upset with ahma naggin u,
u dare nt tell mummy bcuz u're afraid she'll be worried.
no matter how much fights we have in the past,
u will still buy me whatever food i like when u saw it.
you will always surprise me with little gift.
and when i cried,
u will always ask me what happen n tell me not to cry.
i remember there was once,
when we quarrel reali badly,
and u used a knife to chase after me.
you said words that hurt me,
and was rude to me.
but i nv blame u for that before.
because im not a good sister in the past.
i neglected u when u're young,
and never truely love u in the past.
now that u finally turn 13yrs old..
ive seen u grown.
in some sense,
ive gotta admit that ur thinking is more mature than me.
you're a great brother to me,
and soon,
u'll be a grown up man and all this left will eventually become memories.
i wish u the best in ur studies and whatever u're going thru.
teenagers life are nvr easy to handle.
remember that u always have a second sister standin by u,
and i will always love u,
my little brother(:.
happy birthday ah boy,
and i will always give u the best.
i'll get u whatever u want,
and i'll always be workin hard to provide the best for u(:
