to my dearest brother:
we've been spending 13years of kinship together,
and we've been through alot of fights,tears,laughter,joy&sorrow.
i see you grow every single day,month&years.
and as time pass by,
you're slowly growing into a teenager,
more mature and sensible.
13years back,
you came into this world.
and soon after,
i've become a sister to someone younger.
i remember that i was so happy back then.
whenever aunties/uncles carry you,
i would follow behind them.
afraid that they will take you away.
when you were young,
i wished that u would never grow up at all.
i was the one who keep pestering mummy for a younger brother,
but im not the one who took care of you.
ever since u're born,
da-jie has always been the one taking care of u.
i may have fetch u from kindergarten before,
but always end up scolding you for makin me wait so long.
ever since daddy left,
back than u were only 6yrs old.
and that was the yr when i start becomin rebellious.
i didnt care much about you,
i rejected helping you.
i was nvr the one coaching u in ur studies,
and all the credit goes to da-jie.
i know u grow up with no father love & ever since u're born,
mummy started working and u're left home with only da-jie&ah ma.
i wasnt around and ah ma is the one who took care of u for 13 yrs.
wake u up for sch,
pack ur sch bag,
prepare ur breakfast&lunch,
cook for you,
give u pocket money.
even until now,
you nvr failed to come home straight after sch and accompany ahma.
even though u're out with frens,
u nvr failed to reach home by 6pm to bring ahma go downstairs eat.
sometimes when i wan to bring u out,
u will reject me bcuz u're worried ahma is lonely.
ernest,
i know you've been a great grandson.
when u have problems in studies,
u always solve it urself.
when u have problems in sch,
u keep to yourself.
when u're upset with ahma naggin u,
u dare nt tell mummy bcuz u're afraid she'll be worried.
no matter how much fights we have in the past,
u will still buy me whatever food i like when u saw it.
you will always surprise me with little gift.
and when i cried,
u will always ask me what happen n tell me not to cry.
i remember there was once,
when we quarrel reali badly,
and u used a knife to chase after me.
you said words that hurt me,
and was rude to me.
but i nv blame u for that before.
because im not a good sister in the past.
i neglected u when u're young,
and never truely love u in the past.
now that u finally turn 13yrs old..
ive seen u grown.
in some sense,
ive gotta admit that ur thinking is more mature than me.
you're a great brother to me,
and soon,
u'll be a grown up man and all this left will eventually become memories.
i wish u the best in ur studies and whatever u're going thru.
teenagers life are nvr easy to handle.
remember that u always have a second sister standin by u,
and i will always love u,
my little brother(:.
happy birthday ah boy,
and i will always give u the best.
i'll get u whatever u want,
and i'll always be workin hard to provide the best for u(:
no matter how hard life is,
no matter how torturing and painful,
no matter how tired everything seems to be,
life still goes on.
and everything still have to carry on.
happiness is what we ownself seek for,
and it depends on how we handle our own situation.
no matter what,
i'll always be the strong girl.
i'll always pull myself thru y darkest moment.
i'll be fine after a heavy storm.
one day you'll see,
there's rainbow in my life.
just need to pull myself thru.
no matter how tiring it is,
i have to be strong to see a better future for myself.
everyone's moving on in their life.
just get going jo.
and always remember,
this is ur life.
nobody can always be there for you.
and you will always have ur family members by ur side.
rmb,
frens are just frens.i wont give up,
and i wont break down.
i'll be strong even if all goes wrong.
no matter how long it takes,
as long as i believe in myself,
i'll find a way out.
(:
