so we stayed over at janelle's house for the past few days.

i simply love it(:.esp the last night together with janelle and zac.
i shall just combine all the photos into one pge,

otherwise my blog would be spam with pictures again.=x
so peeps,if u wanna have the photos,

let me know and i will send it to you ya?(:

and wednesday night we went arena together,

i got banned from arena !=x.long stories lahs.

but pass few days were realli fun,

and lots of shocking things happen too.

but still,

i wished every dae would be like this.:)

sisters,im sorry for those harshful words i have said.im sorry for saying that you guys were actually replacement of janelle's clique.i have never feeled this way before,but its because i was blaming myself for what i have done towards you guys thats why this thought would actually pop up in my mind.you guys know what?you have always been a blessing that God has given me,because you guys are always there for me when i needed someone.always there to endure my nonsense,to hear me out and nobody else in the world would actually stand my fuck up attitude.yes indeed, 12years of friendship wih germaine,she must have been hurt umpteen times by me,must have been realli enduring me for long.we have realli gone thru a long road together before.and as for katherine and me,baby you're the one that really know me inside out.how i have treated you in the past,how much i hurt you,make u worry for me,all this i know .i really hated myself for not being able to balance my friends,not being able to treat them equally.baby,ur msg that day make me cried,because even after hurting u so badly,u still sae tt if anyone ever mistreat me,u always welcome me back.know why i want to leave this clique of ours?its because i hurt u guys too much,nothing can actually help to take that scar away.i feeled belonged in this group of ours,i feel loved.i know who is actually my true friends.but,why cant i just make my mind up?i missed all of us.maybe i have been expecting too much from you guys,and causing all of u to be really stressed up because of me.we have our own circles of friends too.you hae ur boyfriend & frens,germaine has her own guitar and cosplay friends.didi has her own yishun cliques too.i feel extremely bad because you fought with xiuting because of me.i feel bad because didi ended up sniffing glue again. i know the two of u dote on me the most,and had always wanted to protect me. i am sorry if didi scolded you &germaine because of me. sorry that didi was spoiled by me because whenever she attitude,i scolded u two instead of her.no matter how bad she treat u guys,how she push ur limit,i still ask u two to give in. there is so much going on between us right now. and i am the main cause of it. i know the three of u would be able to slowly put it behind and be close again,but im afraid i cant.its because i have always been the main caused.how long we havent go out already?sigh,ever since that night we went drinking together. i feeled our distance,esp didi and us,that is why i know sooner or later we would distant,and im afraid that day would come,that is why i choose to spend it with my friend instead,but like what i said,i balanced it wrongly.even though you guys had been forgiving me time after time,even though u guys said that i'll be welcomed back.but deep down,i dunno if i can anot.i have no guards to bring myself into ur life again.