just uploaded a photo taken on new year day,
to make sure that this post wouldnt look too wordy:)
i guess this post would be kinda emotional,
well i just cant help but to be feeling disturbed nowadays,
and i just cant get you off my mind.damn it.
just because of a mistake tat night,
i've lost you.
there's distance between us now.
we were no longer close.
i start blaming myself for whatever that happen that night,
if it all didnt happen,
we wouldnt end up this way.
im startin to get really affected as the days goes by.
everyone has been asking me to let go of this love,
which is reali impossible.
i tried,but i just cant.
ive fallen for u so deep,
and there's no turning back anymore.
you said that you couldnt give me happiness,
i understand.
but all i wanted is for you and me to go back to the past,
when we were really close together,
and for you to act as though u dunno tt i like you.
i told you before,
if i can choose to let you go,
i would have already done so on the day we first broke up.
but it has been months,
and ive not yet got over you.
but still,
i thank you for not leading me on,
for speakin the truth to me.
for doing things now to make my heart die.
i told myelf,
i have to give up.
i need to give up.
because he wanted me to do so.
but i know that i cant be my normal self infront of him anymore.
have i been a fool to actually fall for his tricks?
i couldnt sleep at night,
because you are always on my mind.
i couldnt focus on every single thing that im doing.
because im owax thinkin of you.
i dunno what causes me to fall so deep in love,
damn it,i know im blind.
no matter how hard i tried to let you go,
my heart still brings me back to you.
well,
the hardest thing is sitting right next to you,
looking at you and know you'll never be mine.
i cant say how i feel,
i cant tell how long is needed for my heart to heal.
but i always knew from the start,
i never realli had your heart.
but well,
i understand that a love we cannot have,
usually last longest,and most vivid.
now i just wished that you would take a look back at me,
and really treat as though nothing ever happen before.
please,
give me a chance just before its really goodbye.
i promise you,
i'll let you go by valentine.
always remember that each tears i've shed,
is an 'iloveyou',
which is left unsaid.
