i tried to do things to occupy myself and not to think so much.
the moment i wake up in the morning,
i'll look at my phone,
hoping that you'll text me.
and i go to anywhere i can,
just to keep away from stayin home and think.
i'll think of you before i fall asleep.
and yes,
life goes on and on just like this.
others may not know how i am feeling deep inside me.
i'm trying vey hard to keep on going,
to stop those thoughts from rummaging through my mind.
because only you can make me stronger,
and to make me smile,
just like how i did few weeks back.
our text were short and it ended lesser than 3msgs.
there's nothing else left for us to talk about.
others said that i've given all i can,
but i feel that i didnt tried hard enough.
maybe all u ever wanted was not these?
i dont know.
im left with 14days,
before i have to give u up.
i promised you this.
and i've promised the clique.
everything's gonna change on monday onwards.
lesser time for me to meet up with clique.
i've decided to go back to work.
i have to stand up on my own feet.
maybe its oso the best way out for both of us?
i dislike these feelings i have nowadays.
suffocated with lots of words ive yet to say,
filled with lots of uncomfortable emotions,
thinking of lots of weird stuff.
who can i talk to about it?=x
hey shilah babe,
here to return you a post:)
i have to sae,
i didnt really do my duty as a friend to u babe.
im still feelin guilty of throwin u at east coast tt night=x.
sorry to have left you alone to settle ur problem.
somehow,
we're in the same boat tts why u n i understands each other:)
i hope everythin goes on well for you,
even though we have lesser time to hang out,
but u promised me a text everydae!
and i hope u really do so ahs:)
although our clique splittin up,
but still,
our memories stays right?
loves.
just let me cherish those days left with you.i swear,i'll make it memorable.
