we are just as retarded as last time.
i love blue rose,esp when its u who give me=].
thomas and me,taken after work.
i love myself=]
my new schedule book.hahas my little diary.
he gave it to me when he return from malaysia.
girl bought this for me on her trip to thailand.
we both have one=]
ps:i think it looks like germaine tan la.hahas.
the flower bloom till so nice=]
my watermelon lollipop from my dearest janelle tan!!
roses are love.
fresh bulggogi rockx=]
here to blog now. =]firstly,
wanted to sae,
derek foo.
dun think that i still like u.
because im long over you.
after one week of tearing for u,
im over u.
i think its been a month.=]
so dun be too thick skin.
i have to admit sth,
im terribly hurt.
but its just that i dun have the courage to say.
who can i tell my problems to?
im stuck in the middle of the road =x
you make me feel the pain.
you make me feel the ache.
you make me feel demolished,
you turn me upside down.
why cant u just be who i hope to find?
why can u just be who u used to be?
why must you become like tt?
why must u owax scold me n hurt me so bad?
you go,
and expect me to ask u to stay.
evern though i noe this,
are realli goodbye,
but i rather u go.
simply because things has turn out to be,
so bad till we cant even turn back time anymore.
i choose to let go.
though i will miss u.
but still,
its better to end it now than later.
so goodbye love,
i can only sae,
u hurt me too bad this time.
i think monkey is loved.
isnt it adorable? XD
but sadly,
just not meant to be mine.
read my sister's blog,
it says that blue rose symbolize impossible.
i shouldnt have asked for it in the first place.
damn it
i've got it wrong.
im fine recently.
but sum nights,
i'll be struggling to pull thru.
nowadays after work,
dunno why,
just have the fear of going home.
on the way to work,and back home,
ive been emo-in like hell lahs.
hearing depressing song,
and staring up in the sky.
ive been workin realli hard nowadays.
have been thinking..
i regretted.
when aunty mary n ah ma is still on earth,
didnt give them some of my hard earn money.
and now,
im deeply missing them =x.
i treat ah ma,mummy n ernest to watch money not enough 2.
i save the money for so many days.
didnt bring money to work,
owax buy a few sticks of nicotine from my sister..
and managed to save,=]
well,
just now,
i was thinking..
im here workin so hard,
and they are enjoying their movie.
but still,
its all of worth=].
wanna lesser my mum's burden.
for my holidae,
i'll postpone it to when ive clear my debts.
and had some savings.
maybe one or two yrs time?
anw,taiwan or bangkok will never close down ya?=]
i had so many things to say,
but staring at the computer screen,
makes my mind went totally blank.
changes ,changes & more changes to come.
people say,
you can never stop learning.
while to me,
i realised that ppl can never stop changing.
days passes by realli fast.
and im glad ive moved on.
no longer hanging on the cliff.
even though,
i feel the pain.
but i just dunno how to voice out,
at least i know tt im still coping it veri well,
so friends,
no worries for me.
im fine=].
blame myself for my fuck up attitude in the past,
blame myself for loving yet dare not voice out.
who would want to keep on failing in life?
i believed life is still long,
and colourful=]
no more melancholy,
no more sadness,
no more blue-ness in my life.
i wan rainbows=]
phew;
im actually thinking.
am i fallng in love with anyone?
or maybe i should just stay like this,
anw,
we are just outlet couples.
and u are just my 'outlet boyfriend'.
u're the eye candy tt melt my heart n eyes XD.
realised that out here in this world,
there's no such thing as fairy tale anymore.
ive been living in denial.
thinking tt prince charmin actually exist.
but to think of it,
no one is perfect.
and i cant owax wan things my way.
i'll just let you fly away.
and continuous waiting if u're return.
i love myself,
i love my family.
i love my friends.
i love my life now. XD
janelle,germaine,yinjie,cheryl- thanks for being such a wondeful fren.
even though we don't contact every single day.
even though i dun see janelle every day,
even though only tok to cheryl in school,
even though everydae fight with yinjie,
even though seldom sms germaine now,
but stilll,
glad we are in a stable friendship.
friends are important.
and owax remember,
even if others talk bad things about u,
u must NVR talk bad things about urself =]
LOVE IS IN THE AIR.
(well,let me dream on :] )
