Saturday, July 19, 2008 10:08 AM
to someone ive known for more than half a year.someone who i will never forget,forever.thanks for being there for me once,when i needed u reali badly.and yes,after so long,this post is for u.i know.i know u do care.i know u dote on me.i know u still love me.but i dun feel it anymore.u are just u now,and im just me.we will never be together ,anymore.it hurts,when i think of the past.when u used to make me happy.try to stand by me,just to make me smile when im sad.try to wipe away those tears ive shed.bring me go catch supermario,bring me go catch sweets.yes,u used to be the one.the one n only who i know will always stand by me.but u're different now.u are no longer who i used to know.all u noe is to disappoint me again n again.i need ur love,ur frenship.but i want u to know tt my leaving,is to make sure u will be able to wake up fromm all those utopia u're leaving in.life's not as bad as u think it is.its just how u face it.my heart is bleeding in pain,my souls are crying.my tongue longs to speak.my eyes wants to see the direction.yes,im about to break down soon.as i told myself to be prepared.to be prepared for another heartache,to be prepared to go thru life without someone.well,i've lost a friendsomeone who used to be so dear.someone who used to be the one.but still,IVE LOST YOU.there's no words left to be said between us.because now,we are of different world.there's nothing left to be said.still,i thank u for the footprints u've left in my life =]happy birthday in advance.where are u?where are all those who realli once dote on me before?where are all those who i realli lean on when im down?where are all those who owax try to make me smile when im down?where have all of u gone to?and yes,im alone now.i used to think i'll be happier by leaving all of u.well,infact,i really did.but sometimes i'll fall apart.tired.tired of everything.i have to be stronger than last time XD.i feel the distance.i realli do.but i cant do anything.i can only let fate bring us to where we have to be.i cant stop reality from changing.because it would happen sooner or later.i feel torn,devastated.why do i feel this way?ps:GAL;did u feel the distance between us?im sorry for being really busy nowadays.sorry for spending most of my time at work,sorry tt ive neglected you.somehow,after i told u tt dae,tt im not worthy to be ur fren,i gave up.maybe its because,by realli trying very hard to be the one u need,i still failed to do so.sorry for all this shit im giving u.somehow,i feel unhappiness in my heart.maybe u wouldnt turn to me anymore,maybe u'll be happier off without me.i dunno.i dunno what happen.i think of u,i think of me.and it always ended up with a US .i dunno how am i supposed to describe.we would always be as one.we would never be broken up.i used to think,not even the strongest wind can break us apart.i used to think,we have each other.everyone can see,u were never there when i needed u.but i know u have tried.gal,its not u who jus cant give me wad i want,its me,its me who's expecting too much.we have a long road ahead of us.we stil have a long long long long journey to walk on.have we lost each other?we didnt,right?tell me that ive never lost u at all.i feeling uneasy.miss those days when we were realli close.but i realised,its owax me who try to pull our friendship closer.its owax me who take the initiative to take the first step.well,its jus a feelin of US.a mixed feelin of happiness n sorrow.phew,long time infact.realli long to pull thru it.i dunno what is reali goin on between us.how have u been?im sure u have alot to say to me.ive always hope we'll be the best of frens.where we have no secrets between each other.but im sorry i have always been doubtin u.i know there are many things u kept from me,and u wouldnt say.because u wouldnt even bother to think of how to say.u'll end up sayin tt u dunno.what exactly happen to us?maybe u wouldnt be feeling how im feeling,u wouldnt feel as though between us,there's sth.which drift us further n further from each other.i dun understand,what has realli happen to us?ps:yj,i know u must be wonderin what happen to me,dun worry,im alright.because u taught me to be stronger than before .life goes on,both of us are struggling.i wont fall back.trust me. =]
