Sunday, June 29, 2008 12:05 AM
baby,
i love you that's why i choose to let you go.
i have many things to tell you.
i have many whys in my head wanting to ask you.
we used to be realli close.i still remember how we first met each other.i stared at u n you stared at me.we had eye contact,im sure about that.didnt talk much on that day,because i was quite afraid of you,and to think,i actually did hate u before for that one day.your bdae falls on the 8january.i get your number from germaine and wished you.i acknowledge u as my daddy without u acknowledgin me.we get closer and closer as time goes by.
i still remember whenever you call me,i would feel very =_=.i hate talkin to u,because there's nothing much we can talk about.remembering u always pushing me to johnathan.than when i wanted to go with sky,u would strongly disapprove.u used to tell me sae,nobody can hurt ur only nuer,because i was realli important to u.u once told me that if whoever want to be with me,must go thru ur permission first.because u dun allow anyone to hurt me.u used to sae derek n jo yi bei zi.u used to sae that life without me would be different for u.
we started getting closer and closer as time draw us nearer.there's always us.we were so closed till not even anyone can break us up.i used to stick to u,realli sticky.and always whining at you.and u just dote me as much as u can.always protecting me.
not allowing anyone to hurt me in anyway.always remembering you when i walk pass suntec,tampines mall playground,vivo city,yishun staircase,changi beach,east coast park,cable car,ferry wheel,plaza sing,far east,orchard,even my house.
will you remember my smile?
will you remember me?
will you always think of me when u walk pass places with memories together?
will you think of me once in a while and take out the book i do for u to see?
i miss calling you daddy.
i miss being ur nuer.
i miss pinching your face.
i miss dirtying ur while pants.
i miss taking ur cap n wear.
i miss whining at you.
i miss u calling me nuer.
i miss u telling me u miss me.
i miss u calling me in the middle of the night n waking me up.
i miss tellin u that 'daddy i miss u'.
i miss sending mms to you.
i miss sending long msg to you.
i miss wasting my handphone bill just to call u n chat for hours.
i miss caring for you.
i miss crying for you.
i miss u caring for me.
i miss you asking me to cover blanket at night n drink lots of water.
i miss u trying to make me smile when im sad.
i miss all ur nonsense you said.
i miss u wiping away my tears when i cry.
i miss ur hug.
i miss u calling me si zhu.
i miss turning to u whenever im sad.
i miss u turning to me to tell me ur problem when u're down.
i miss u calling me baby.
i miss ur smile.
i miss ur jokes.
i miss going out with you.
i miss u for snatching my fone to see.
i miss u wanting to come my house to upload song into ur fone.
i miss u coming my hse to fetch me go out.
i miss sharing lollipop with you.
i miss sharing drink with you.
i miss u feeding me .
i miss u pei-ing me to eat salmon whenever im sad.
i miss u trying to pinch my face n fail to do so.
i miss stepping on ur leg .
i miss having ' cat fight' with you.
i miss helping you wipe ur tears when ur tear flow.
i miss hugging you.
i miss ur voice.
i miss ur smell.
i miss ur presence.
i miss u helping me hold my bag.
i miss u trying to protect me.
i miss u getting angry at me.
i miss sayin u irritating.
i miss going out for dinner with u.
i miss playin dare game with u.
i miss choosing helmet together with u.
i miss you for telling me ur ambition.
i miss u for always spendin time with me.
i miss u for the times we two realli sat down n tok.
i miss u when we both cant bear to hang the phone.
i miss our memories together.
and above all,
i miss you.
i have so many thing to ask you.why did u have to go?i dun blame u for all this thing.i just hope u will tell me why.is all that u sae a lie?why cant we even be daddy n nuer.im fine with the break up.but what hurt most is you not wanting this nuer.is letting go realli tt easy?have u been fine in life?u mean so much to me,but u choose to go just on my bdae eve.i nvr regret bringing u out to celebrate father day at cable car.i knew tt my love n friendship were all true.
i still remember,whenever i saw ferry wheel,i'll owax say-'daddy!ferry wheel'.and we used to promise each other to go sit ferry wheel together on 7dec.u promise to make me happy on my birthdae.but u lied to me.u promise to bring me happiness.but u lied.u asked me to make 3wishes for my bdae .n u promise to make it come true.but u didnt.why even germaine get to celebrate with u?but why didnt i get to do so?u're realli important to me.but sadly,u choose to end it.didnt u sae tt im important too??didnt u sae tt without me,life is indeed hard?have i been a fool to believe u?is it me or is it you?
i told you that i love you,
but u said it wasnt true.
Well now that i guess,
I think it’s time for me to go
To move on with my life without you
And to face reality itself,
To let go of dreaming.
Of how many times we try
But words are still goodbye.
maybe its really time to give up,
cause there is no longer anymore me n you.
without u here in my life,life would be so different.but still,im glad that ive known u in the first half chapter of my life.i pray tt u will be more mature.dun do anymore illegal thing.dun keep on bleahing probation.dun keep hurting ur own body.dun change from bad to worse.cherish people who love u.dun hurt girls who treat u good.dun break girls heart.dun play with girl.i know u played with me .but stilll,i love u.and i'll forgive u.dearest,u wont be loathe by me.i will still love u.
u will never be forgotten by me.
u will owax be remembered.
whenever u are sad,
u can owax still turn to me for comfort.
i will still be like a fren,
reaching out to u when u are lost,
picking u up when u fall,
wiping ur tears when u cry,
comforting u when u are depressed.
lending u my shoulder when u need a shoulder,
be ur listening ear when u need to complain.
i cant stay by ur side anymore.i cant be ur devil nuer le.i cant be ur xiao er mo anymore.i cant be there to care for u anymore.i cant be there to owax text u asking u to go hm ealry n rmb to eat lunch n dinner.chippy will always stay close in my heart.i'll hug him to sleep still.i wont forget you.and forever,i'll remember you whenever i hear the song-jing jing de-shou xi de wen rou-gan qing xian-bu shi wo bu ming bai-bu zuo ni de peng you-bei ying-forever love-wo wei she me hai ai ni-wo xiang yao shuo-nan dao ai yi ge ren you cuo ma.-xu yao ni de aii believe i can make it thru.Baby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just aint trueI really need you in my lifeNo matter what i have to doI'll wait for you.what can i do to make you come back?i;ll cry countless number of tears for u.but i believe one day when i wake up,my tears will all be dried up.and i'll smile to move on.my tears were around the corner of my eyes.i keep thinking of u,afraid that u would do bad thing.afraid that something bad will happen to u.iagine my day without u,its torturing.i dun blame u.im waiting for u to return,but at the same time .im trying to let go.without u,i'll be different.i wont be who i am.i know u must have reason to do this.i will just wait.wait for the time u tell me.maybe a month later or so?life's gonna be realli tough for me.but i will try to move on.i know u did too.i'll miss u.and i will bring the memories together with me as i walk on in life.yes,i'll cry everydae.because losing u is really painful,but i believe time would heal my pain.i believe one dae i'll get over u.goodbye,my almost lover.26dec to 27june-our frenship ended.
DEREK DEVIL DADDY,
NUER MISSES U ALOT.
