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Monday, January 28, 2008 8:27 AM

on fridae,
i have to choose between derek or sky.
i noe i have to leave either one.
i dun wan to.
i dunno who korkor and johnathan will follow.
if i choose sky,
i will lose daddy.
i dun wan to lose daddy.
derek is the daddy who i reali treat as my daddy.
who i listen to the most.
korkor and john very teng me.
who should i choose.
i feel so lost.
i scare for fridae to come.
i dun want fridae to come.
i will cry..
i will have to leave either.
God,tell me wad u want from me.
tell me wad u want me to do.
why cant i just choose all of them.
i want them to be brohers again.
i wan to be happi with them.
i dun wan to leave daddy,korkor,pumpkin or even my boyfriend.
tell me if this is real?
can someone know how i feel?
i wanna leave.
cause it hurts.
i dun want to choose.
cause i noe i will be veri sad.
i want my frens.
i wan my lover.
but on fridae,
i know wad my decision will be.
i will choose daddy and korkor they all.
by fridae i must leave sky le.
cause daddy they all mean alot to me.
den i have to let sky go.
i scare daddy dey all end up also leave me.
sigh cannot la.
i will reali feel sad.
memories wif all of them are so vivid.
i felt like cryin.
cause this parting is v sad.
i veri she bu de him.
i will be veri sad.
this is a big sacrification i make.
i just want korkor n daddy to be happi.
and germaine...
i noe germ wan to stay with derek n korkor de.
but is my choice.
i want germ to be happi.
so on fridae i choose to break with sky.
i first time reali so happi with a guy,
but i end up can onli stead with him one week.
i have no choice,
but i have to break with him.
someone,feel my pain please.
sigh.

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

i feel pain in my heart.
i need to leave.
i have to go.
i have to.
i cant stay on.
mr sky,i hope u understand.
tt me and u were never meant to be.

ps:sky,u just dunno how to cherish me.u keep on doubting my love.
i only left with 3 daes with you.i just want to be happi.
but everynight,u make me cry.
cant u just make me happi before i leave u?

you know you're in love,

when the hardest thing to sae,

is goodbye.