.the sweetest love of all.

ask me to be yours.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008 8:33 AM

i love the wae you kneel down and ask me to be yours.
kneel down and ask me for patch.
i love you alot.
just dont doubt my love.
ive done all i can do for this relationship.
i want you to love me.
i want to be the onli one u love.

i love mr sky=]

7:04 AM

MR SKY;

i had a enjoyable night with you yesterdae=].

yesterdae,break with xiaosky.

veri sad.

than daddy derrick and johnathan come my hse with germ to find me..

than i super xin tong sia.

he say dun wan break.

but i insist on breaking.

went down woodlands with daddy n john n germ to repair daddy's phone.

and germ gave me a stalk of blue rose=]

after that went down to yishun.

meet korkor first than saw sky.

than he was abit drunk i guess.

he walk up to me and ask if there was anythin i want to tell him.

i said no.

i ask if i can hug him,

he sae no.

sigh...i hold his hand.

he push my hand away and walk away..

ah xiang help me buy beer..

went carpark to drink.

sky came over with all his frens.

he so drunk sia.

i see le,also feel upset.

after tt tok tok tok than ok le.

than sky veri sweet,

he ask all he's frens,add up to 10 ppl..

to stand in front of us..

than he kneel down and ask me for patch.

he shout my full name,

and sae he will not stand up unless i agree to his patch..

than i agree.

than i pei him and his fren outside his hse.

ton and play manjong..

than they teach me to play manjong.

but i dunno how to.hahas.

den walk to beach ..

than he hug me from behind..

than he veri sweet lo.

hees...todae is my one week with him..

happi one week mr sky!=]

the counting down...

Monday, January 28, 2008 8:25 PM

fridae will be approaching veri soon.
im feeling the fear.
im feeling the pain.
why do days pass by so fast.
somehow i hope that i am able to heal the pain soon.
sigh...help me please.
i think the more i think,
the more i fear.
i feel sad.
u just keep on doubting me.
how much attention u want from me.
tell me wad u want me to do.
ive given all i can.
everyone has a limit to everything.
lets call it off.
cause this is extremely painful in my heart.
mr sky,let me tell you,
u hurt me so bad.

8:27 AM

on fridae,
i have to choose between derek or sky.
i noe i have to leave either one.
i dun wan to.
i dunno who korkor and johnathan will follow.
if i choose sky,
i will lose daddy.
i dun wan to lose daddy.
derek is the daddy who i reali treat as my daddy.
who i listen to the most.
korkor and john very teng me.
who should i choose.
i feel so lost.
i scare for fridae to come.
i dun want fridae to come.
i will cry..
i will have to leave either.
God,tell me wad u want from me.
tell me wad u want me to do.
why cant i just choose all of them.
i want them to be brohers again.
i wan to be happi with them.
i dun wan to leave daddy,korkor,pumpkin or even my boyfriend.
tell me if this is real?
can someone know how i feel?
i wanna leave.
cause it hurts.
i dun want to choose.
cause i noe i will be veri sad.
i want my frens.
i wan my lover.
but on fridae,
i know wad my decision will be.
i will choose daddy and korkor they all.
by fridae i must leave sky le.
cause daddy they all mean alot to me.
den i have to let sky go.
i scare daddy dey all end up also leave me.
sigh cannot la.
i will reali feel sad.
memories wif all of them are so vivid.
i felt like cryin.
cause this parting is v sad.
i veri she bu de him.
i will be veri sad.
this is a big sacrification i make.
i just want korkor n daddy to be happi.
and germaine...
i noe germ wan to stay with derek n korkor de.
but is my choice.
i want germ to be happi.
so on fridae i choose to break with sky.
i first time reali so happi with a guy,
but i end up can onli stead with him one week.
i have no choice,
but i have to break with him.
someone,feel my pain please.
sigh.

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

i feel pain in my heart.
i need to leave.
i have to go.
i have to.
i cant stay on.
mr sky,i hope u understand.
tt me and u were never meant to be.

ps:sky,u just dunno how to cherish me.u keep on doubting my love.
i only left with 3 daes with you.i just want to be happi.
but everynight,u make me cry.
cant u just make me happi before i leave u?

you know you're in love,

when the hardest thing to sae,

is goodbye.

baby~

5:10 AM

baby i know you wouldnt be reading this.but still i want to tell you.
though this relationship has to end soon.
not because im over you.
but simply because i have no choice but to let you go.
we may not last as long as we want to.
but seriously,
ure e only guy that ever make me feel so protected.
though ure veri possesive towards me.
but i still love you and feelings havent fade a single bit.
i love the wae u walk.
u look simply so cool.
i love the wae u walk me down the road.
the wae u protect me from others guy .
the wae u dress,
the wae u waste ur time rushing down from yishun to my hse to fetch me.
the wae u bleach ur probation time just to spend time with me.
the wae you talk to me and make me laugh.
the wae you hug me.
the wae u help me take my girlish bag.
the wae u offer me drinks.
the wae u hold my hand and cross the road.
the wae you stood by me.
the wae you wipe my tears.
the wae u pamper me.
the wae you attitude me and push me away but apologize.
cant you see that im reali happi being with you?
cant you see that i reali dun wanna lose you.
i remember how u kneel down in front of me and ask me to be your's.
i remember how you once hold my hand and sae tt u dun wanna lose me.
i remember how you once hug me and sae tt ure reali in love with me.
you doubt my love for you,
its okay.
but i still love you.
call me stupid,call me foolish..
im in love with mr sky.
fridae,we have to part.
you may not noe the reasons why i have to go.
but im sorri tt i have to leave.
this is not wad i wan us to end up to be.
i have to leave.
just remember that i will always be here for you.
jus remember that ure the one tt i love.
mr sky,u noe tt i love you.
i love u for every single thing u do.

goodbye;love.

you hurt me tremendously.

Sunday, January 27, 2008 10:49 AM

you owax hurt me in such wae tt i'll feel pain in my heart.
u sae u trusted me but all this came up to be a lie.
you sae u love me but i doubt tt u reali do.
i had enough of all this.
stop all this okie.

its painful.

Thursday, January 24, 2008 8:06 AM

i feel the pain.
i reali do.
it simply hurts alot.
sigh.
i know that my korkor's someone who dote on me alot.
this is going no where.daddy please dun leave.
i hate to choose.
i love my korkor.
i love my daddy.
i just want to be with them forever.
i dun wan either one to leave.sigh.
the pain is so torturing.
it hurts.

Sometimes people come into your life
Like they're meant to be
And suddenly you've found someone
Who sees the world like you see
And you laugh like crazy
At all the crazy things
That no one thinks are funny but you
That's when I knew
That I had a friend so true
If my world were crumbling down
You are the one I'd want around
Cause through everything you've shown me that
You were the one who had my back
Remember the laughs
Then add up the dreams
And take it to the nth degree
We'll be friends forever
Cause you'll be forever in my heart
That's where best friends are
There will always be hard times
I'm glad I've got you to see me through
And I will never forget your smile
I just have to say thank you
For being there always
Even the darkest days
Especially when you didn't have to
That's when I knew
I had a friend in you
So if your world should fall apart
Call me I'll run to where you are
I only hope that I can be
Half of the friend you've been to me
Where would I be
Without you by my side loving me
Anyone can see that we're the real thing
No matter what and always
We're best friends forever

a brand new year.

Thursday, January 3, 2008 5:27 AM

happy new year to all.
a brand new year.
a brand new start.
a brand new beginning.
and im sick.
moron~