Thursday, October 25, 2007 11:32 AM
my ah ma passed away on 22oct07.
she used to be a woman who serve God faithfully.
ive heard many stories of ah ma.
she will always be the legacy in my life.
i felt so guilty.
knowing that ah ma is sick but i didnt went to visit her,
i was havin high fever on the dae my sis n bro went to see her.
the followin dae,i went to work,
i told myself tt i'll go over to visit her on mondae.
but when im drinkin in yinjie's hse on sundae night(mon mornin),
my mum called me n sae tt mama has pass away.
i thot tt she was jus kidding with me.
but i noe tt she is not.
i rush over to ah ma hse,
n saw her lyin on the bed.
at tt moment,
i knew tt she's gone.
i knew tt she've left us.
i knew tt im gonna miss her.
i knew tt she'll be pain-free.
i knew tt she has completed her journey in her 82 yrs.
i knew tt im nvr gonna see her anymore.
when i was young,i didnt reali spend much time with mama.
i only rmb her as someone i call 'chai chee ah ma'.
someone who would do many beautiful pajamas,table cloth for us.
i love ah ma's handicraft.
i only rmb tt i'll go over to visit her everytime after school when im free.
i admit i dun reali care visitin her.
but now im regretting.
how i wish there is a chance for me to shout out,
tt i dun wan ah ma to die,
i dun wan ah ma to go.
i owax feel so proud whenever i tel ppl tt i have 3grandmother.
i love all three veri much.
but now i can only sae,i onli had two left.
i rmb the smile ah ma gave when we meet up.
her beauitful smile,
her laughter.
i miss ah ma.
and she will forever live in my heart.
ah ma,
i promise u will owax live in my heart.
i'll nvr get to see you again.
nvr get to see ur smile,
hear ur laughter.
hold ur hand.
receive ur handicraft.
hear ur prayers.
i noe tt ur wish is for us to be happi,
i promise u,ah ma,tt i will.
i noe u will look after me in heaven.
ah ma,i miss you.
i reali reali miss u alot.
tml's e cremation dae,
ah ma,i dun wan u to leave.
i reali felt like crying.
but i dunno why i cannot cry out.
ah ma,wo hen xiang ni.
goodbye;till we meet again in heaven.
this is my ah ma.this is her journey in life.this,she has completed it.and fufill god's will.ah ma,rest in peace.i noe u're in haven.without any pain or sufferin.you are free right now.your will;has been done.i love u,ah ma.goodbye.
i hate the pain im sufferin now.
jesus,come n open up the barrier in my heart.
come and touch me.
let me cry out.
let me cry out loud.
take away the pain.
the sufferin,the torture.
the memories-/
.I HATE MYSELF.
