Sunday, October 2, 2011 4:49 AM
many things happen during this few months..
time is indeed running fast.
i had missed out on alot of things but i do feel happier now than before:)
even though i have lost the lady whom used to be there throughout my darkest time,
but i have learnt to pick myself up,
to go on without you,
to accept the fact that i have really lost you.
your bday is approaching,
i wouldnt be wishin u,
but that doesnt mean i have forgotten u.
i jus knew what u wanted me to do 2yrs back when u have decided to leave.
:) i miss you.
i wish i had e chance to talk to you still.<3
taaaa-daaaa!
time flies and now is already the month of october:)
i still have less than two months to go,
im nervous,
im excited..
maybe throughout all these month i have learnt to see,
to see what should be called priority and what i shld not bothered.
becoming a mother myself is no longer a joke,
i wanna give little chloe the best i could.
many have said that i resemble daddy,
but i wanna make a change,
i wouldn wan to follow his footstep..
throughout all these years,
i have been living in denial.
i lied to myself that i have e best dad in this world.
i lied that he didnt mean to leave.
but i was wrong.
ive learnt that he is indeed jus so useless.
i tell myself im a 20yrs old kid now,
i no longer wan to dwell back in e past.
i have to moved on.
and im indeed trying.
i have learnt to forgo,
and take thing easy..
im still trying & still learning to grow up.
maybe i have straightened my thoughts,
i have seen it all,
time to go on,
to move on,
to learn to achieve what ive lost.
to be happier in life:)
Wednesday, July 13, 2011 11:02 AM
throughout everything,
i treated u as a friend.
i doted on you more than i could have done so.
i have never given up hope on you.
but end of all all u make me felt was disappointment,
used and betrayed.
because u betrayed my trust.
and u betrayed my friendship.
u make me feel used by u.
i was upset.
i dunno what u wan from me anymore.
because only when u feel lonely than u turn to me.
even if really i only have u as a fren,
for me to lose you,
i really would.
because u are not worth my frenship.
do u think i really wanna chase u for e money?
let me tell u,
its because u always take me for granted.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011 12:55 PM
this is part of whoever that came for my birthday.
but there are more people.
i wanna thank kat,wendy,chris,medaline,siao eh,alicia, ah yi, xiao sky,deardear, lawrence,
they really make my life worthwhile for that very moment.
i miss the past.
my bday,
gwen n xiao sky came my hse with a bday cake,
than kat came to fetch me at 530.
after which head down to pwp to meet dear & timothy.
waited superrrr long before CHRIS, MEDALINE& GF came.
i swear i was damn happy cuz e two butch lie tt they need work!
after that went yoshinoya to eat,
POT CAME OKAY!!!
omg i was soooo happy.
sat at pwp stairs for very long chatted n laughed among us.
than,
KUKU WENDY APPEARDED with a cake!
i was v touched because i nv expected that she will be there!:)
i almost burst into tears!
than go to mac n sit n tok for really long,
before that AHYI N GF CAME!
i hugged him so tight!
its been yrs since i seen him:)
than chris stayed throughout with kat until all go.
tts how i spend my bday:)
TON after dunno how many yrs,
at old airport road with kat,chris n timothy.
bus-ed home on e morning.
dear came over cause we quarreled,
after which okay le i went his hse to stay.
all e way till sat &,
i FELL SICK.:)
SIAO EH & ME :)
my dearest SISTER & BABY:)
KUKU & BABY :)
HAPPY ME:)
the one not facing cam is xiaosky.
while at my hse downstairs:)
this guy was with me throughout all these months.
he was there when i had to make a right decision,
he was there when i need to be scolded.
he was there when i fell apart in life.
he was there to keep me strong & going.
he was there to be my sunshine.
he was there to make me e happiest girl on earth.
he was there when i lost my sens of direction.
he was there to pull me thru my darkest moment.
he was there when i needed a shoulder to cry on.
he was there when i couldnt find a reason to be strong.
he was there to feed me with food.
he was there to treat me like a princess.
he was there for me when i needed to go e extra mile.
he was there for me in e middle of the night.
he was there to bring me the most precious thing in life.
he was there to be my future n destiny.
he was there to love me.
though we always quarrel & quarrel,
but i know deep down he loves me alot too.
i couldnt have been strong without him today.
i couldnt have been luckiler to have him with me.
i love u my future husband,
thanks for being a part of me. ♥
and to you,
my only true friend.
i have not forgotten you.
though u have left & never a part of me anymore,
i rmb all that you have taught me clear & well.
i finally know what u hope of me back in the past.
but it was me,
who is naive & stubborn,
not willing to hear you out.
now that finally after u leaving me for going to two years,
i got ur meaning.
what is grown up?
u left me half way to grow up on my own.
my life will nvr have u stepping in anymore,
for this i know.
i dunno if u still care for me,
but i just want you to know that i miss you.
i look back thru the pictures we had.
you were a part of me,
but time flys.
i & you really grow up.
never expected both of us to end up like this,
because whenever there's jo,
there will always be yinjie.
but it doesnt matters anymore.
many times we could walk right passed each other,
as though we were never a part of each others life.
i jus wan u to know,
i miss you& i really do.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 10:55 AM
okay as u all can see,
many things have changed in my life this year.
im back to single again,
and my relationship with jeffrey lasted for 1yr 3 mths before we officially broke up.
things didnt go well with us thise 2 mths when he is in army,
and everything turn out nasty n ugly as well.
but im moving on happily because there is no point holding back.
i have no regrets for everything i have done in the past,
and i left because i love him n i hope he will grow up.
the last thing i hope of him is for him to be truely happy.
though i may not be the one who get to be cherished like the next girl tt comes along,
im still willing to let it all go for him to know what is love.
and i believe if u really love someone,
you would want them to be truely happy.:)
this is e greatest sacrifice a girl can do in love,
agreement? :)
okay back to topic,
in may i will be attending my sister wedding:))
omg i seriously cant wait.
is like finally:)
alright blog again soon:)
Sunday, February 6, 2011 7:54 PM
Mars n Venus. Both different world.sigh
Thursday, January 20, 2011 10:43 AM
we have been together for coming 1 yr 2 mths already.
ever since the day u went in army until now,
we have been quarrellin alot,
and i feel that time is forcing both of us to be strong n move on.
time indeed change someone.
and you said that you dun feel my love anymore,
but deep down in my heart i reali still love you.
i must always rmb not to let a moment of happiness destroy what i have.,
i miss u so much,
but u just cnt be here with me.
im learnin to go on without you.
its not that i cant wait on,
its just that what exactly happen to us?
what happen to the once we call 'you n me?'
both you and i know that there is something wrong between us.
both of us reali feel the distance between us.
but we can only keep on quarreling.
sooo many things happen during this one mth plus when u are inside,
and both of us began to lose trust in each other.
this is the obstacles,
are we reali able to pull thru all this obstacles?
LOOKING BACK AT THE PHOTOS,
we've been thru so much.
damn alot of hells together.
every different type of celebration.
every different type of happiness
even every single type of sadness.
i called just to say,
i reali miss u alot.
but do u reali noe?
time is forcing me to grow up.
i cant help but keep on thinking.
can i choose not to grow up?
i didnt wan to face the reality world.
but i noe i need to grow up.,
will u reali reali be my future?
